I ask myself over and over why do I have anxiety and depression and all the other stuff that seems to come in that bag of goodies. One of my favorite shows on TV is "House" if you have not seen it, it isn't a reality show about people in a house trying to kill each other for first place. No, it's about a hospital and it best Doctor, Dr House (it did win an emmy). Anyway with-in the hour the problems are far ranging and run from A to Z and are cured in less than 60 minutes. Well anxiety being an A, why shouldn't this be fixed with-in an hour. They often surgically remove a piece of the skull to see whats wrong and some-one always seems to find it. So with the technology of today why can't people like us who have emotional problems just have our brains looked at and find out what is working over-time to cause these problems. Doctors say well your brain is not producing enough serotonin or what-ever, so lets get in there and find out why. I have suffered from these things far too long and I hate it. I don't live my life, I just seem to muddle through it and that stinks. I think science should make this a priority so the world can be a happier place. To whom-ever reads this my heart is with you. I have a feeling that it's good to be here.

Boy did your e-mail hit the nail on the head and hard. I have been on vacation all week and would think i would be in the best mood but I woke up this morning mad at the world. I have a wedding to attend today and the last thing I feel like doing is celebrating life. I know all it will end up being is me completely exhausted by the end of the day from chasing my 3 year old all over the place. This weekend is also the scenic drive that I usually look forward to going on all year. This year I could care less. I know I should probably seek treatment for this but I don't have it in me to even try. I like you, completely hate this but I am fed up with trying and just getting knocked down. I'm sorry I did not mean to dump all this on you.I just feel maybe you would understand more than anybody. I think I'm having such a bad time because even if I shake this I know it will not be long and I'll be sliding back down this horrible slide of sadness. You would think after a while I'd get smart enough to stop climbing the stupid ladder that leads to this. I think a big part of the problem is I don't even realize I'm on the slide until I slide down and hit the bottom. Well I guess I better close and go try to make myself look like something for this wedding. If you have any suggestions I am open. I should probably let you in on the fact I have a job I hate, no social life and no time to find one. All my life seems to consist of is my job my house and my child. I do have to commend myself that a friend of mine suggest yoga and I am going to look into it. I know I need some kind of release. Thank you for letting me vent even if you don't have an answer to my mess, Faith.

I just happened to read your posting. It reminds me of me! I felt exactly as you do and the only thing different now is that my kids are all grown (all 4 of 'em), I'm divorced and I live in a sort of "hell hole" so that I can be next to my elderly mother who always told me in some way or other that I was not her favorite daughter. Yippee! Well, I quit the job that I hated (fitness director - I know, "How could she hate that?!!??) and traded it for a job which is less demanding, but I have to beg for my paycheck! I've been with this program for 8 weeks now and only see a little "light" in the distance...My sorrow, depression, anxiety comes and goes like the wind. Oh ya, I live in Florida the Hurricane state. Thank God we've been spared so far this year. (Sorry to the people in Lousianna, Texas, Mississippi!) Sometimes I wonder if this "Group Thing" is real or if there's just some old cig-smoking hag out there who set this whole thing up for a laugh?

Wow, its upsetting reading these posts, yet I too have beenin the same boat and fight daily not to be, so I guess at times I still am. It was SO BAD I COULDNT GET ONLINE TO FIND SUPPORT... been healing for years.
I just want to say you ask for a little help to literally brighten that dim light,well I must say do take sublingual B12 AND Straight Omega 3 (3 NOT 6!), yes not the capsules, the oil in bottle, max dose!
Anyway, I had serious growth (tons of money and time) and yet was still NOT good, these supplements helped me become more clear and optimistic to see a better perception of where I was and want to go. That is the reality, FOCUS on what you want, your future, where you want to go in it!
By the way suicide comes from the belief the future will not change.. Talk to me!
Blessings
N

LivinitAlot, I had the post just before Sandi's. I don't know if your post was in reference to mine but thank you for the advice. I am going to try those supplements if I can find them and afford them. I am to the point of trying anything if its natural. I had a bad spell with depression meds. They seem to work at first but then kept me up half the night, one of the side effects. Just what a depressed person needs, to lay awake and think all night.
I really hate to talk of my depression because I feel it does Lucinda's program injustice. I know I would not be here today if it was not for that fateful night I came across the informercial. I do believe sometimes it has made my depression worse due to the fact I know how "great" I can feel. It makes the lows that much worse. I feel I am in a constant race to try to find a balance that is forever out of my reach. I atleast know now that I'm participating in the race which is more than I can say before I did the program. It's weird I have found just coming to this website often can bring my mood up just by interacting with people just like myself that struggle every day.
Anyway, I just really wanted to say thank you.
Faith