I am new to this forum. I am on week six of the program. It has been a tremendous help...I know that it was God sent. I was raised in the church all my life. In fact, my father is a pastor. So I always knew the Lord, but this is the first time my faith has been tested to the upmost. I am the type of woman who on the outside has it all. But on the inside I felt like I was falling apart. I have been dealing with anxiety for about six months now. It started as tingles and dull muscle pain, but recently excalated into nervousness, fear, and tension. About a month ago, I awoke in the middle of the night and could not get the word "Kill" out of my mind. It literally scared me almost out of my mind. I started having thoughts of hurting my husband. We have only been married for two months. I love him more than anything except GOD. I prayed and prayed and yet I felt alone. I know that the Lord will never leave me or forsake me. I have faith that the Lord's love will see me through. I know that the road is hard, but be encouraged. The trails of life come to make us strong. I hope someone can relate. I would love to get some scriptures I could meditate on.

Dear v.g.

You certainly aren't alone. I do phone support all day with those going through the program. I have learned that we usually pick the most precious in our lives when we have a "scare attack."

It really isn't the 'word' it's our reaction to it. You may have been on the tail end of a dream bec. of some tv you watched the evening before. When you get to lesson 10 this will make more sense. Remember you will need to use the time between lesson 3 and 10 to practice the skills in 2 and 3 so you can do lesson 10 well...make sense?

Be patient with yourself and the program, Carolyn