My husband and I will pray for you. All you have to do to serve God is live right, be happy and be kind and loving towards others, be yourself. Sometimes what seems to be devestating can turn out to be an answer to a prayer. I went to prison at one point in my life and while there I was required to have a mammogram becasuse of my age. Well, guess what, they found out that I had cancer. I had been praying for years for God to help me get away from the lifesyle I was leading but thought he wasn't listening. If I had not gone to prison I would be dead now. My point is, I too, thought that Satan had a hold on me that I could not break. I was living a horrilbe life, in constant danger and doing drugs (with my mental health conditions) I guess I was trying to self medicate. During my cancer treatment I came to REALLY know God and I now have faith and hope like I've never known. That was 5 years ago. Now with alot of praying, hope and faith my life is in a place I never even dreamed it would be. I am married, as far as I know free from cancer, living in a nice home, completely clean, and thanking God even for the bad times. When times are bad or we have doubts we must remember to have hope and faith. You may think that God is not hearing your prayers becasue things have not changed for you yet but Believe me when I tell you He is there, you must, above all else have hope and faith. He will show you the way in time. Trust in Him with all your heart and don't be so quick to forget about all the great times and happiness He has given you. God Bless you and I pray that God gives you strength, understanding, and peace of mind.

Thank you for your simplistic and encouraging words. God Bless

THank you to all, I am almost afraid to say that despite not sleeping last night today was a good day. I am learning the God loves me even though i am not perfect and even though i cannot be perfect i am learning to understand him as a God of love not a God who is always telling me i should be doing better and until i do i will suffer. This time would be easier for me to bare if i honestly believed all i had to do was wait on the Lord instead i keep thinking there MUST be something i need to do some formula i need to figure out. I am scared tho mostly becasue of the not sleeping i don't have insurance so i can't go to a doctor so pray for me about sleeping please

lael,

You hit the nail right on the head! You think that there is something that you have to do in order to "fix" this. This is the same problem I had for so long. I still struggle with it from time to time but I must say it does get easier and the fog does begin to clear when you stand your ground. Giving up control in anything in our lives is scary. I always feel that there is something that I have to do in order to fix anything that is wrong. Really there is only one thing that we as christians need to do..."Be still and know that He is God".

I used to think - yeah right..how can I be still when my thoughts in my mind are going at warp speed? But it is so true. Stop trying to fix it- just relax and know that He wants so much more for us than this.

A few years ago- I went through a very rough time. I had a miscarriage and it really threw me and my anxiety into a tailspin. Then one Sunday at church an aquantance came up to me and said " I have wanted to tell you how much my heart aches for you. I went through the same thing not too long ago and I know what you are going through." She then went on to tell me that when she miscarried her doctor said to her..."Perhaps you are going through this experience to help someone else go through it too." She then told me he must be right because she felt as if she needed to extend that hand out to me in my time of need. SHe was a huge help to me and I still think of her often. What I learned from that was that I became a stronger person in the long run. I didn't see it as it was happening but I see it now. I went through this program about 5 years ago and I must say it made a huge difference to me. It helped me open up to thers who are or were going through the same exact thing. I still come back occasionally to give myself a check-up when I may be feeling vulnerable but trust me when I say that you can overcome this.

Stay the course, lean on God and be excited about what he is gleaming you for. I just ran across this verses this morning and it really struck a cord.... 1 Corinthians 1:3-11

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.
We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about the hardships we suffered in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life. Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our[a] behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many.



God Bless and keep us posted!

IAEL,
Try READing PSALM 91 BEFORE YOU GO TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT! I will pray for you. sweet sleep beside still waters he will restore your soul!
Blessings,
K

spent last night tossing and turning. I praised and thanked God even though that is not how i felt. I tell myself he loves me even though that is not how i feel. I just want to feel normal, not too happy not too sad not too tired not too anxious just normal every day emmotions this is taking a toll on my family at first my mom was so supportive but its been a little over a month now and she is concerned the other day i went to my sisters house and she did not know were i was and she called me freaking out! She actually thought i would hurt myself. It broke my heart she is sick enough with out having to hear about my sorrow but i can't hide it. I feel like my heart is hardened against God but I don't want it to be I know in my brain trusting him is logical and so I try and yet this trial presists I really do believe i must give up everything i love for this to go away....why? I hope that one day soon i will post and uplifting and heven sent post until then i so apprciate that support i get from this site.

Dear Heavenly Father help Lael go to lael and start to heal body,mind and soul. Comfort and give peace that only you can give. Cover with your precious blood and precious Holy Spirit. Show lael how you are there no matter what. Show lael how much you do love her/him. I am not sure what she loves so much that she/he thinks she/he has to give it up. Hopefully she can use the things she loves and not have to give them up. Cover her/him with your precious blood and precious Holy Spirit. Heal today and let her have good nights of sleep. In Jesus precious name we pray Amen

swanees,
thank you for your prayer, (i'm a her), and that thing i am not sure that i can give up or am not sure if God really wants me to is pants.

tho i am afraid to say it i am feeling better this evening more confident that God is with me and will always be with me. I thought i should post the good along with the bad right.

Hi there
I see in your post you said You go to church, read your bible, pray but i never saw where you said yOU have asked jesus to save you and that you believe he died on the cross for you and you love him and you want to spend eternity to him.
You can be a good person and do the right thing and go through the motions but if you are not saved you will live miserably. Eternal life is not built by good works but by being saved and born again.
I will keep you in my prayers.

COACHGAL0252,
tHAT IS AN excellent point, I have asked jesus in my heart when i was four when i was 22 (assurence) and then again today just to make sure since i was so misrable. It only takes once i know that but apperantly i seem to be lacking faith in the God that created the universe....doesn't make sense to me. thank you for your prayers. God Bless!