Hi, here recently I have been noticing fears that I have before a major event say like a doctors apointment. I know the doctor appointment is manifesting my fear but havent had any trouble going to the doctor til now. Could this be a growthspurt?

"I must not fear. Fear is the mindkiller. Fear is the littledeath that bringstotal obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me.And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear hasgone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." -Frank Herbert

[This message has been edited by MidNiteRider (edited 01-12-2002).]

You know.....I went through the same thing!!
I thought I was only afraid of standing in lines and big stores with confusion but more than ever, I have questioned myself about EVERYTHING!!

I wonder where that comes from??? Maybe from reading all the posts here? I don't know.

But it does seem like a can of worms has been opened huh>?

Hi MidNiteRider and SMears. I would like to throw my two cents in on this one. I've had those experiences too and one conclusion that I seem to be coming to is that I bring on those fears because I don't know how I really should feel about something. If I have faced all of my fears and I know that I can get past them, then I seem to be able to find another fear to replace the old ones just so that I will feel "comfortable." I don't know if this makes any sense. It reminds me a bit of the comment Lucinda makes on one of the tapes. She says that we are miserable with the anxiety/panic/depression but at least it is familiar. I have situations now where I will be planning to do something that should be fun and yet I don't know how to "feel" about it. My reaction to those situations for the last 14 years has been anxiety and panic. I seem to be having a little difficulty recognizing excitement or even contentment. If I go through my "what-if" mantra, then I feel an elevated anxiety-level and then it feels "normal." Does this make any sense to you? Any thoughts about this?

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Mountaingirl
come forth into the light of things ~ let nature be your teacher. William Wordsworth

How does one know for sure that it is/isn't a growth spurt?

Mountaingirl,
Somehow what you wrote made a lot of sense. That happens to me sometimes. A lot of the time.

By the way, thanks again for the card!

Hi all!

To answer Cutufa's question-

Lucinda's definition of a growth spurt, is when you have completed the program and think you are just about recovered. Then...something big happens in your life and some of the old body symptoms return. It's also known as a practice opportunity! It's a time to really learn something. Life is a learning experience. I know I will have practice opportunities for a long time as I didn't develop this disorder in 15 weeks, it going to take some time and lots of patience and practice before I can say I am 100% recovered. As mountaingirl stated we all can be miserable with the "body symptoms," but it's familiar. I also think mountaingirl that what you are doing is good! You are recognizing what you can do (practice these skills) until you get to a comfortable state of mind. In time, with each practice opportunity our symptoms will dissipate as our new thought patterns will overpower the old ones.

2~4,
rhythm/aka-dl




[This message has been edited by rhythm (edited 01-14-2002).]

Call me a wimp, but my body does not like growth spurts. I still jump out of bed and grab a piece of ativan and cup of chamomile tea. I always considered my self strong, but right now feel like I have been hit by a Mac truck. Other members have refered of my attacks as cluster anxiety attacks. I will be happy for the day when my old brain meets my new brain and they agree to be on the same page!
Vickie