Hi all,

This program really helped me back a few years ago. Actually, I'm sure it saved my life. Anyway, I did something STUPID of me this weekend. I took some ecstasy. As a result my anxiety seems to have come back in full force. I can't tell if it is worse or better than when I first started the program. All I know is that once again, I am afraid to sleep, afraid to dream, afraid of loud noises once again. For some reason, I am having a hard time coping now. Has anyone out there had any drug related relapses? If so, how did you go about handling it? I'm not really sure what to do, only that I feel so terrible. The positive thoughts I am trying to produce don't seem to be working and I am having a hard time convincing myself that I am going to come out of this. I know I should not have done drugs, but I am having a hard time dealing with this fact. Anyway, any comments or suggestions you have will be much appreciated. I'm almost to the point where I'm afraid to leave my home.

X is a drug that enhances your sensory system and it amplifies all your sensations.For anxious people i can only imagine how it would effect us.My best friend is a paramedic and she used to do x and she is my source of info .I have never done X and do not ever intend to . Annxious types are very sensitive to any new body sensation and that is why we over react to minor things when others do not.Please use more caution with your choices because you are much better than that you dont need x. use the simple exihilarations of life as your drug of choice .you are welcome to email me i will help as much as i can because there is one person on this forum who has helped me beyond means she knows who she is thank u.I would like to help as much as i can.good luck

Thanks for your help. Like I said, I made a very bad choice. I'm actually feeling much better today. I didn't think I would, but I am. Sometimes it's realy hard to use the coping skills that you have learned when your serotonin is completely out of whack I guess. Anyway, I'm very happy you responded to my email. I'm not completely out of this "growth spurt" yet, but I'm sure when I get out of it, I'll be that much stronger. Thank you!

Yea I did the same thing...but it was with alchohol...I got drunk one night and the next day I had that spacy dizzy hangover...I over-reacted and got anxious and paniced...took me 2 weeks or so to calm down from it...but I realized that those over reactions are the cause from it...for me anxiety was a scary thing to go through...now the only problems I have is the "what if" thinkging that can happen if I dwell on it. You will be ok, just dont do that anymore

{{{{{Annika}}}}}

It sounds like you are really hurting. Do you have the Attacking Anxiety and Depression program? Or are you seeing a counselor? Sometimes when depression gets too deep, we need help to get out of it. I hope you will talk to your doctor about how you are feeling.

You deserve to be at peace, and your daughter deserves to have you with her. There is hope, annika. Reach out for the help you need. Take care,