I'm never sure where to post -- the module I'm on or the most relevant one! I just finished Mod. 15 and I've been having lots of resistance behaviors and spurts since about Mod. 10, I'd say. Still, when I took the workbook test that I'd taken in Mod. 4, it sure showed me what positive progress I've made so far! I'm going to go through the program again, but I think I need a breather first! I had a great experience with the program. It was really eye-opening and helpful for me. I think my resistance and growth spurts are a normal part of challenging myself in new ways, so I am much more accepting now.

SOoooooooooooooooo, here is what I'd like to get feedback on. I've been realizing that my perception of everything in my life past and present is changing. That said, it can be tough sometimes to digest having made so many decisions based on a negative or frightened outlook. I've gone so far as to realize that all my fears, insecurities, anxieties were things I constructed and weren't true! That generates lots of feelings including excitement, but also some that take some time to get through.

So, here's the thing. Now that I'm involving more positive thoughts into what I'm doing, I find that it is so new still that I feel like the positive stuff isn't true and that I'm lying or misrepresenting things. Is this just from lack of experience with a positive outlook? Like I'm going through a job process and I'm thinking about the opportunities I have to consider and how my skills are actually positive and relevant and then I feel like I'm thinking, this can't be true. I can't actually want that job (the type of work I walked away from a few years ago). Or I'll think about how I'm qualified and then I'll think, no I must be overstating my experience or overselling myself... Is this a normal reaction just because this is so new and just part of the process?

This is crazy to have the way I view my whole life, my relationships and my entire goals change so much! It is truly an amazing gift to be able to view everything so positively. I'm wondering, I guess, when I'll believe it!!

Does this even makes sense??

Thanks a ton for your help!

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