I would say I'm 90 % better. I'm driving everywhere , haven't had a day off work for a year and am on the whole very bright and breezy.

However I'm still struggling with some body symptoms mainly retching and tonight some vomiting which I haven't had for ages.

My first thought is always that I'm heading back down the road travelled but it does pass but it's still very uncomfortable on some days. On others I barely think about it.

For example this week- Monday was brilliant, Tuesday was ok, Wednesday was great, today has been so so and getting worse. I've not even a difficult day tomorrow- just average.

My partner is away tomorrow night and that might have something to do with it although he has been away before and I've been fine.

Although I don't need company anymore I still like to know that someone is around on the end of a phone when I'm having a down day.

Can anyone give any suggestions or remember being something similar ?

Many thanks

Radar~

You are doing woderfully! Really. We all have good days and not so good days. Don't measure one against the other....just accept each day for what it is. You should be so proud of yourself and all that you have accomplished to this point and with each new day a new lesson will come. Remember that it is okay to feel bad sometimes and that you know how to get yourself out of it. Keep up the great work!

Silvana

Hi Silvana,

Thanks. It seems like I've been trying so hard forever. 5 months in reality since I learned what it was all about and what to do.

The year before that I just managed- sometimes well and sometimes badly - needing to have company more. I think I was still in shock that my body had failed me.

I'm having lots of trouble with the accepting bits still ......

My partner is now going away for 16 days in October so thats the new big challenge.

Hi-You have learned too much to ever go back where you once were. We all get down times and it is Ok. I usually tell myself when that happens to me that hey I am about to learn something new about me. Yes it feels like we are working hard forever but with time time and practice the new way of thinking just takes over and give yourself credit for coming as far as you have. I have been out of the program for 2 years and it totally amazes me how the old habits still try to creep in but the difference now is I recognize them and I can now change them. Take care and You sound like you are doing great!!!! Timber