i'm about two months out of very intense anxiety due mainly to things i have learned through this website and many books, etc. I have changed my outlook on so many things that i now realize were causing or intensifying my anxiety. I have been meditating every day which i have found a very effective tool to control my mind and keep from obsessing (my problem). I am realistic about recovery. I know it isn't easy. I know it won't be overnight. I will have weeks of near anxiety/obsession free days, but then i tend to cycle through the old problems. usually due to something i see in the news. Specifically, i have three main issues.

i'm terrified of becoming depressed or losing interest in life. I have never felt this way and DON'T feel this way, but the thought of it is a huge fear of mine. I also tend to ruminate on why it is that people do bad things. I've always been a good, kind, and caring person but i worry that i could "snap" and turn into a killer/sex offender/any other bad thing i hear about on the news. And i often worry about going back to where i used to be with my anxiety or having a traumatic experience that will lead to an episode.

I am able to quiet the thoughts and not let them affect me like they used to. And they always pass, but they seem to eventually come back or just get replaced by some other thought.

I'm wondering if others are in the same boat, and if you have any suggestions to getting on with this stage of recovery. Please don't think that i'm just being impatient, because i know that this will take time, but i am looking for more tools that i may not know of.

thank you very much

This will come in time. You will gain the understanding and actually beleive that you will NOT hurt anyone (sex offender, of another other bad thing). I too thought I would do something, never did. It was just a thought, nothing else. I started to write it off, not dwell on it and it happened less often. Write it off and do not dwell, think about a positive thing, distract yourself. It will come around. I do not have thought like these no more. ALL GONE! Yours will be too! Take care! LizB