Just when I thought that I had this whole anxiety thing tackled, life throws me a curve ball. For my entire life up to this point I have always seen myself as a hetrosexual. The thought of being with another woman has been totally repulsive to me. Now I have to ask, Was that a cover for who I really am?

A little more than two months ago I met this woman that just knocked me off my feet. Since then we have been talking every night for hours on end. We are constantly texting each other throughout the day. We have so much in common and so much to talk about. We have become very close. A lot of times our conversations are so intense.

I think I am truly falling for her, and I think that she has strong feelings for me. Unfortunately, her last relationship ended when her partner cheated on her and she is really hurt because of that and is having trust issues. She seems as though she is currently emotionally unavailable to me. I have told her about this program because I think it will help her deal with the emotional aspects that are left from her last relationship, which was a fairly long term one, but she is hesitant to try it.

We have not been together physically at this time. There is quite a bit of geographic distance between us. We are talking of getting together in April, but no firm plans have been set.

My anxiety is high again!
I never knew that relationships between women could be this intense! My feelings have also opened up a bunch of new questions about myself that I now need to deal with.

Is this a growth spurt? I think so.

It sounds like it is a life giving relationship. Continue to stay healthy with the program and maybe it will make her open to the possibility of trying it out for herself. It sounds like you are being honest with yourslef and like you are grounded. Good luck!