I still get amazed when I think of how far I've come. Just today it hit me, we have a very big mall right beside where I work and before I knew it I've gone ALONE in my car, standing in line to get a parkingspace, standing waiting in line in the store, and I didn't react of what I was doing before I sat in the car on my way back to work! I did all this and I was just fine, everything felt fine. These are the times I try to tell myself how far I've come and that I should be proud of myself. These small moments are what I've been working for. And it feels great!
//Didde

Didde, I am so proud of you! Way to go girl!! I kept thinking today how I've put off for years going thru the car wash. It used to just freak me out. I decided I would do it and prayed I wouldn't have to go and ask someone to drive my car thru. Well, it wouldn't take my money, then I was getting excited about the card not going thru, kept thinking it was not meant to be, and what am I thinking, etc. but yet determined no, I WILL do this. I WILL make it. Ok, car is finally in there had to back up go forward, started thinking I'll be stuck in here, who will know, crazy thoughts but I kept saying it's anxiety you'll make it. Press on. Thoughts like I'm so stupid I don't even know how to go thru, duh, am I supposed to put the car in neutral? it doesn't say. OK, it's in neutral. It wasn't moving like one years ago. Gee, here comes all the foam everywhere, "I could be buried in here like an avalanche!". Oh, it stopped. Good the sign says Go! Oh now the dryer, wow, it's OK I made it thru. Got home, car is nice and clean. YIPPEE! I did it. Yes it was anxiety producing but now I feel good. So Didde we both did it! Now what is our next milestone to conquer. I know what mine is but know that will be a while yet.