I havn't been writing for a long time, but I have to talk to someone. It's about lesson #12. I realize that I have to change in order to get better, and I'm really trying. But I'm scared, scared of getting hurt, but foremost that I won't be able to handle it. I've always seen myself as a shy person, but I'm tired of putting myself in the corner. However, sometimes I can't seem to manage myself to step trough that wall. I wonder if maybe i'm holding on to something. And I still feel that I get scared of my thoughts. I feel needy and that scares me too!!!

I posted this to another similar question. Maybe it will help.

Its kind of like moving. You will miss your old house. It was comfortable and you knew where everything was. You knew how everything worked. When you move into your new house things are different. The sound, the smell, the shadows, the scenery out the window, the neighbors are all different. You still miss your old house but you don't want to move back there. You tell yourself that you will get used to this new house and you will enjoy it and be comfortable there soon enough. There is a time of transition. You have to find places to put your things and learn how everything works again. But you start feeling comfortable there because your familiar things are with you. Its like when You start becoming peaceful and happy and confident. Its new and different but you are still you and you are still there. WHo you are is with you. Your anxiety isn't who you are but just the house you were living in. You have made a choice to move what you are living in. YOu have decided to change things and look at things differently. Just remind yourself that you will enjoy the new you and you will get used to it soon enough. Your new house is your attitude and mindset. ANd no, it won't be boring but much more fun than you ever thought!!! Reena

Go ahead. Move into your new house!

Thank you guys,
I guess I really needed to hear someone say that. I know I am moving, and that it sometimes is scary, but on the other hand, living with depression and anxiety is far more scary than anything else. The house part was great. Thanks once again, I feel that I'm getting so much support just by writing in the forum.

Anna