I'm on session 12, the courage to change. I think I'm using almost all the resistances for change. Right now I feel really anxious and really depressed and I'm not sure what to do about it. I got all of three hours of sleep last night and my mind isn't quite there. My thoughts are scattered. I guess I just need to express myself right now. That's the only way I can get help. My mood is pretty low right now. I just feel like being alone, but I have to go about my day and I have to stick to commitments I've made for today. This day is going by so slowly. I'm just trying to make it through, but it's really hard to. and I can't find the next couple of sessions because I'm disorganized and I misplaced it. I made a huge mess in my room trying to look for audio session 13 so that I can move on. I need to be more organized. It was difficult getting through the night. My mind is too busy racing so I could barely concentrate on any one thing. I read, took a bath, put lavendar oil on my skin to help me fall asleep, but my mind was just too active. I need to clean my room, until I find the other cd's I'll just keep working on session 12, but I hope i find the other ones soon. I don't usually write a lot, but my mind is so busy that I need to get the words out someway. I used to be doing better. Has my medication stopped working? am I doing something wrong? something just isn't right. Why was I feeling happy a month ago and since then been spiraling downward? I need help. I need support. I need guidance. I need someone to tell me that it will all be okay.
One thing I'm proud of about myself is that I'm reaching out to people and asking for help. It used to be hard for me to do that. It still is, but the more I do it, the easier it becomes and the more help I am able to get from others.
from,
Michelle

michelle,
i hope that bynow you have found the cd's .you need to find the relaxitation cd and listen to it and get relaxed so that you can sleep. you know how to change your thoughts by now since you went through that part of the program. take your time and do not get in a hurry...when your mind is racing. slow yourself down...you will find the cd's and be able to continue on..its not a hurry up and get through the program. if you feel that you need to go back to some lessions that you feel you need help in the please do. i wish you luck and hope to hear some positive comments from you.take care and let me know how you are doing. thanks...
don

Gee, I wish I would have seen this earlier. I hope you get this and are movin' on and doing better. First of all, you don't need anyone to tell you what to do. You know what you need! !st of all, learn to calm yourself down. Listen to the relaxation cd's even if it seems difficult at first. Listen to your self talk: your I should's and I need to...lower your expectations of yourself, relax and treat yourself with some compassion. You sound like a reasonable and intelligent person, I know you can do this!