I have had continued panic attacks, severe depression and thoughts of suicide. I have lost my job, my ex-fiance and I have accumulated mounds of debt, all in my name, and I'm being sued for medical bills and just received a disconnect notice for my utilities. I can't breathe and I can't stop my thoughts enough to get a plan put together. I can't get motivated. Don't have insurance now to go to a doctor and feel helpless. Can anyone help?

Maggie, I think you have the program right? Are you using that relaxation tape. You need to use it many times a day. Really concentrate on relaxing. Ask God to help direct your day and BELIEVE he will. Get up and do something...ANYTHING to get started. As you eat thank him for your food, thank him for hot water as you wash your dishes, thank him for the air you breathe. Come against that spirit of death.FIGHT IT!!! Get back to your program. Listen to the tapes and be sure to do the work in the workbook.

You can breathe. You can make a phone call to explain your situation. You WILL get help. Are you married? Do you have children at home? I am praying for you right now that things turn around. Get out your Bible and ask God to speak to you and direct you. Please post again so we know what's happening.

Hey I'm back Maggie cuz I just read some of your other posts. You are a special lady. Do Not give up!! I read some of your other posts. One was an encouragement to Matt who didn't think life was worth living. You know it is Maggie!! Now, get back to your program cuz from your post above, I can tell you're not doing it. Remember I am praying for you and I know many others will be too. HELP IS ON ITS WAY!!!

Barb G.

Thank you for your prompt reply. I'll get those things done as you prescribed. Tough day. The ex is moving out too. It was inevitable. Happy Valentine's day to me!? I'm so sad. I know I'll be better off. I keep telling myself that I will.

Maggie's Mom - You CAN stop your thoughts. Not the initial thought that comes in but you can stop all thoughts that follow and give yourself a break from them.

Use your STOP sign. Shout STOP!

Then use your calm breath. Breathe in and hold for four, exhale slowly through pursed lips.

Then get focused on something that is present. Sing, count backwards from 100-1, whistle, play ball up against the outside wall of your house or garage door, pet the dog, do dishes and focus on this task, etc. You CAN stop your thoughts. You CAN slow them down.

Keep us posted.

Thank you, Boon. I'll take your advice. I appreciate the input. I'm a little calmer and need to do my exercise. Right now, things are so sad and really tough. I'm trying to look at the big picture, but not get overwhelmed. I'm planning my future! Thanks, again.

Maggie, Was just checking in on you. Glad to see Boon was here. Good advice. I need to remember that stop sign too. I'm so sorry you have to go thru this on Valentine's Day but then who knows, it may be a good start. You deserve better I'm sure.GOD'S LOVE IS FOREVER,hang on to that girl! Keep the faith.

I too feel the anxiety today, I think it is just because it is Valentines day. But I want to let you know I have been through loosing everthing after my husband died three years ago, it is terrible when thing start piling up and the collectors are knocking at your door. I have gotten to this step and it is difficult. I have yet to try the relaxation cd, no I did try it but I just couldn't get into it and haven't tried since.

I just want you to know that God walks with us daily, and to keep the faith, he will be there for you. All you have to do is ask.

pgglass, I'm so sorry of your loss. I'm sure there is nothing worse. I'm good with the relaxation cd until the very end. I can't "picture" the things in my head when she says them, but I like her voice, it is soothing and I do get calm. I'm sure I'll be "relaxing" with the cd tonight.

Thanks for sharing. God bless you.

maggie'smom
I know that you are going through alot..you said you have no insurance so you can not go to the dr. they can not deny treatment..
they might want money from past bills.but most try and scare you. they only sent mine when i had skin cancer and could not pay to the bill collectors..do not let that get you down..
you said the ex was leaving..when someone leaves you in time of sickness and trouble.what happened to through sickness and health..
people can be so mean but you can over come this.you are leting others know how yo feel an are geting input as well.. we will be praying for you and others here as well....
i have an ex. but i tell you what. my wife nw i would take bnothing in the world for her. she is the reason that i am where i am now and with GODS help as well...
keep on doing the program and get the skills and tools that you need to go on your journey. you will be suprised where it will take you..
i could write all night long but i will end it now.. know that you are in our thoughts and prayers..GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU..
DON
HIS WORD IS A LIGHT UNTO MY PATH AND A LAMP UNTO MY FEET..

*D*,

Thank you so much for your prayers, your reply and sharing your heart. I don't know where you are located, but it has been my experience now with my local doctor, (someone I also went to High School with and I thought was a friend), they sent a letter that I wasn't able to make an appointment until I paid my bill. What kind of treatment is that?! If I force the issue, what kind of treatment would I get? Anyway, I am up at 2:30am. I have true physical symptoms of a panic attack. I've made some tea, I plugged in Spiderman 2 and am writing you. My breathing is all over the place even when I apply the techniques. My heart is pounding and I hope the tea will slow me down. How will I look for a job in this state? How can I pull myself together in this state? I have to figure this out? Again, thank you for your prayers and support.

Maggie,
Have you tried calling your local churches and Salvation Armies for help?
If you look there are resourses for people with no money - there are food banks and things also.
I would start with calling the Salvation Army and explaining your situation they do help with bills.
THEN I would call the Drs office and set up a $5.00 a month payment plan. Trust me I have been there and that is what I had to do - I have one Dr. that I send $2.00 a month to and they seem to be better with at least getting something vs getting nothing.
There are real solutions to your problems you just have to take deep breaths and listen to the relaxation tape.
Like I said do 1 thing at a time do not overwhelm yourself. Make a list of all that you have to do and cross them off as you do it.
Please keep us posted.

Countesssammi,

Thank you for your reply. I hadn't thought of some of these things that you mentioned. Twenty-four steps back...my ex, the one who was moving out, lost his job yesterday. This is all too painful. I agreed to let him stay for now, but he wants to stay for good and stay with me. I saw us married in 2003 and we were engaged in 2005. After a series of deceit and flat out lies, I no longer saw us married. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I also have expressed this numerous times and he's still here. I could spend a day on a psych couch, huh?

Maggie, It's time to get out the assertive tape and listen and apply it so you can kick that bum out. He's not any help to you. At this time in your life you don't need a moocher. You need someone who will help. If he can't help in any way, kick him out!!! He will only had more stress to your life.

No, sweetie you don't need to spend a day on a psych couch. We are here for you. Good advice above. Have you done it? Have you called churches or the Salvation Army? You will get help when you take the action needed to get the help. We're all praying for you. God bless you dear. Hang in there.

MAEGGIE'SMOM,
you said that you saw yourself married in 2003 and engaged in 2005. did you ever get married..if so then it will go against his credit if the bills are not paid.i fund that out from my ex. she had bills in my name and did not even know it. she had charge cards that se put in my name and maxed them all out. i finally got it squared away FEW YEARS AGO..
get up in the morining SUNDAY and find a CHURCH to go and hear GODS WORD.. we all need the CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP of those that are there..they will help you so much.. all CHURCHES have a food pantry..every one that i have gone to has.
take it one day at a time and do what barb says. kick him out so that you will not have the burden of him being there too. we are here for you anytime yu need up. take care and GOD BLESS..
by the way go find another dr..does not sound like a friend that would do that to you...friemds are suppossed to help each other..
don