Hi All. It's been quite a while since I wrote but going along the program and arriving at lesson 12 I realize how I have stopped myself from truely being the person I am. Fears coming from my family that I could never make it on my own kept me financially dependent on them and at the same time I never felt I could! I have 2 degrees I am attractive I am creative. I live in a tiny apartment and never have enough money. I somehow In the way back of my mind I knew that the reason I didn't like to fly was because I didn't feel good about myself and I would always think " If I had money and was acomplished I could do this' This is so true! But what worries me now is....I am re married, my husband has a great career but I never see a penny.. he is not so nice, not nice to my son etc...so really he is no real financial support to me other than he pays are rent and a few bills.. doesn't keep me in some fancy lifestyle. I keep me in my fancy lifestyle (which is done with very little money and juggling) (Although I must say "I get it" and I am coming out of emotional dept here!!!). Long story short after arriving at lesson 12. I want to move out and finally make it on my own. What would you do?

Thank you for your help.

I haven't been in this program any lenghth of time so take my comment with a grain of salt, {outside looking in} .. maybe the money situation seems a little more extreme than it actually is, because we are so close to the Holidays. You know we tend to be easily STRESSED !!!! And this time of year stresses even the "NORMAL" person... I wouldn't worry so much about yourself with you having two degrees, and obviously able to take care of yourself and your son financialy. I would worry more about what would be the better choice for your son. If his not being NICE, is NOT NICE, {only you know what that means} You know what to do.....

Easier said than done.....

Talk to your husband about how you feel, let him know. I know that before I got to this point in the program I really had a problem with confrontation, even with my own husband. I have learned that often he doesn't even know that the things that are bothering me are so upsetting. It is only when I'm open with him that he becomes more considerate and aware. The best of luck to you.