Cherl,
I'm not sure what you are saying here. If you are saying should I continue with recovery, then I would say yes. ~Paige~ made a post this morning which clearly showed me that there is a payoff for us staying in our depression/anxiety. We don't have to face our fears, anxieties, depression. It's a lot easier not having to face this, a lot less painful. But, then we also get to keep our disorder and not get better, never attempt, never try, never succeed. Which is worse?
We have a choice, but is it really a choice? Would I rather live like this, with fear, worry, doubt, or seek to live each day trying, attempting, and respecting myself for the courage? My choice is the latter. I am afraid, but it's okay to be afraid as long as the fear doesn't paralyze me.
Here is Paige's post. It was under "Help Me Find the Courage".
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Christina,
Recovery is never easy. If it was, we wouldn't need the program or anything like it because we wouldn't have the problem in the first place.
When you get stuck on one tape or when the subject matter makes you feel really uncomfortable, it's because you've stumbled upon the one area in your life that REALLY needs attention the most. As humans, the reason we do anything is one of two things: to avoid pain or to gain pleasure.
When we're faced with something uncomfortable, our immediate reaction is to want to give up and quit because that's the easiest thing to do that provides instant relief because you don't have to face those "ugly" issues. It's the instant, temporary quick fix to your uneasy feelings. But it does nothing to help you in the long run because you're running away from pain instead of moving towards pleasure - and there's a big difference between those two.
You can give up and send the program back if you wish and continue living with your anxiety disorder/depression, all the horrible symptoms that accompnay it, and all the limitations that it puts on your life. But is that what you really want?
Or you can stick to it, take as much time as you need with this particular tape, get help from a therapist/coach with it if need be, and once and for all deal with your issues, stop running away from pain and start moving towards pleasure instead so that you can have the kind of life you want and deserve.
It's all about choice. Which one are you going to make for yourself?
Life's battles don't always go to the stronger, the smarter, the faster hand; But sooner or later the person who wins is the one who thinks "I can." Author Unknown
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