Hey there everybody.

I am finishing up session two and have not been good about the group thing. I think it is because I am on vacation from my job on a cruise ship and I know internet connection will be sparse, once I am on board. Finally figured I should use all the tools when they are available. My last contract was the worst. The anxiety finally caught up with me. Began avoiding things, which is tough when you live where you work. I knew something was extremely wrong when I got home right before vaction, severly under weight, scared to see extended family (almost did not attend Thanksgiving dinner - large, religious family) and then when asked how Europe was this contract, realized the entire 4.5 months on board, I had never left the ship!! Driving while at home was becoming a disaster, so I was not going out to see my friends while at home. Saw the infomercial on TV during on of those sleepless nights and ordered straight away.

How is everyone else doing?

Progress: I am now driving around, went to the health store and am working on the weight thing, and I am up to 1 mile a day running and 100 crunches. Trying to get on an assignment next contract in Hawaii, where I have alot of friends, even if I take a demotion. If I have familiar people around to talk to (knew no one on my last ship) and enjoy what I have been missing, I thought that would be great.

Mostly, I would just put myself out there and see who is in my group.

Thanks,

Aus der Pampa

Calgon take me away. Your job sounds wonderful, and you sound like you are making great progress. I joined a gym, but I can't want to go. I am just a very beginner, but I am feeling better.

I don't even have the program yet, just the introduction CD. I ordered the program and then immediately revoked my order.(I have trouble making decisions, always second guessing myself).
Last night was really difficult for me. My Dr. gave me a perscription for Risperidone. I have reordered the program and they sent a thirty day supply of a herbal supplement for positive moods. I decided this morning to try the herbal supplement. I don't sleep well at night and I never unclinch my shoulders long enough during the day to relax. I don't know if it's just a coincidence but I actually took a two hour nap and woke up feeling refreshed.
Over the years I have tried alot of different antidepressants but they have all increased my anxiety. The side effects for Risperidone really scare me.

Hi Donbrock. God I feel at home. I am not the only lunatic in the world. I just love you guys. Try the herbal supplement, I have and something is working. I have the same clinched shoulders, but not as bad lately. I have taken all kinds of anti-depressants, but the one that has worked the best for me is Effexor. It doesn't make ne high or low or slow, I just can cope with normal life a little better, I mean a lot better. I am not afraid to take anything that will help. If you have side effects, quit taking it.

I WILL ONLY TAKE NATURAL THINGS. DON'T WANT ANY SIDE EFFECTS.

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Originally posted by DEB EMENHISER:
I WILL ONLY TAKE NATURAL THINGS. DON'T WANT ANY SIDE EFFECTS.

I'm with you on that. I start reading the side effects and they all seem worse than the problem I have.

I tried stronger Melatonin and other herbal supplements for sleep aid. Not everything works the same so, I suggest getting with your doctor and ask for something else. Our course does suggest NO COFFEE and Chamomille at night. The coffee thing is mentioned in many different sources so we need to heed the advice.

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Originally posted by donbrock:
I don't even have the program yet, just the introduction CD. I ordered the program and then immediately revoked my order.(I have trouble making decisions, always second guessing myself).
Last night was really difficult for me. My Dr. gave me a perscription for Risperidone. I have reordered the program and they sent a thirty day supply of a herbal supplement for positive moods. I decided this morning to try the herbal supplement. I don't sleep well at night and I never unclinch my shoulders long enough during the day to relax. I don't know if it's just a coincidence but I actually took a two hour nap and woke up feeling refreshed.
Over the years I have tried alot of different antidepressants but they have all increased my anxiety. The side effects for Risperidone really scare me.

I also don't like taking prescription drugs and have tried to avoid them at all cost. I was seeing an acupuncturist every week for over a year. that seemed to help me but if something triggered my depression thoughts really bad, then it was hard to get through. But I do remember feeling like weight was off my shoulders when I left the acupuncturist. the herbal supplements from our program have helped me also. Prayer and reading the Bible on a daily basis is really helping me too. However, with that, and exercise, and the workbook, and relaxation CD, etc. it is really getting to be a lot. But, I am trying to tell myself that this is it - I have to do this now and devote my time right now to this. I am having a lot of trouble with lonliness. Having started a great new job in a park, but away from friends, family, etc. and not knowing anyone. It's been hard. And I've dealt with embarrassment a lot, comparing myself to too many people. I've struggled with being single and many broken hearts. I'm excited for this program though - I want this change in my life - and I want these traits of mine to work for the better and no longer for the worse. 'Cause not only did I spend another Thanksgiving weekend in tears, but I chose not to drive home at all for Thanksgiving dinner, or for a family Christmas gathering. I just couldn't do it. I'm hoping I'll be better off and thinking more clearly and positively next week.

Courage, it gets better with time. I also know how it feels to be alone during holidays. I am trying to motivate myself to get the discipline to work out more. I am trying to change my thought patterns and think more positively and behave more assertively. I really liked tape 2 panic attacks it really covered how I was feeling. I get really bad migraines when I worry too much. Anyone experiencing migraine headaches?

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Originally posted by BrighterLight:
I am having a lot of trouble with lonliness. I've struggled with being single and many broken hearts.

This is so me.

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Originally posted by Paz:
Anyone experiencing migraine headaches?

Yes, since like, 5th grade. I haven't found anything that really helps when I get one. I have a friend who has been on all sorts of prescription meds for migraines, and none helped. She actually gets botox injections for it now. But, money isn't an issue for her, because her parents pay her bills still, so I have no idea what all that costs.

has anyone looked into magnesium for migraines?

Hey everyone! I was just reading everyone's posts and started wondering where does depression start?? i mean, there are those who've had fairly normal and average childhoods and led pretty normal adult lives and yet still have some of these overwhelming bouts of sadness or bewilderment. and then there are those who've had pretty rough childhoods and/or adult experiences that may lead to these feelings of sadness...it affects so many different types of people; which makes me wonder - where in the hello does depression start? is it some sort of brain thing? today will be my first day starting session two and i'm betting this will be discussed or i'm hoping where does depression start will be discussed. you know, i've always had migraines since i was a child and have never associated it to depression until buying this program. i used to see a neurologist before for my migraines and he had given me meds saying that i may have a chemical imbalance in my head which could be causing my migraines and gave me, i think it was atenolol and nortriptolene (spelling could be off and even the names of the medications could be a little off since its been about 3 or 4 years since i've stopped taking them---i weaned myself off lol). my neurologist said taking the medications should help to offset the imbalance...anyway, the thing is my neurologist never mentioned anything about depression...and i never discussed some of my mood swings with anyone in my family because in my family, thats a sign of weakness and weirdness. sorry about my ramblings - my mind can just go a mile a minute - and sometimes i get a little frustrated and wish oh wish that these feelings of anxiety and whatnot could just completely disappear - for myself as well as for others too. anyway, i'm hoping that my questions on where depression stems from and how does it start gets answered or at least becomes a little more understandable after completing session 2...believe me, i'm still very hopeful about this program and i'm also very hopeful for myself as well as all of you. Happy Holidays and sorry again for this oh-so-long post...just had to clear my head a little - Thanks!!!