I have suffered with depression for over ten years and this program has been amazing and a mircle. I am doing great but I am having tough times. I dislocated my knee three times in the past and had an operation about a year ago, then I was fine. Then my other knee started hurting and realized I needed surgery because I over compensated. But I decided to wait because I started college. Since the school i go to is a big campus and had to do a lot of walking, my knees were hurting really badly through out the year. Then 2 weeks before school was over, I was looking forward to the summer so I could get the surgery on my right knee but while I was just walking I had this terrible shooting pain on the knee I had an operation on. Later on I found out it was basically bone on bone. That means the cartilage from my knees is falling apart and those of you who had knee replacements know what I'm talking about. I AM 19 AND NEED A KNEE REPLACEMENT! That's how bady knee was but they weren't going to do that because I was young and wouldn't really benefit me. After some anxiety for a few week b/c my doctor didn't really know what he could do, he sent me to a second opinion. That doctor said there was anther option and told me about a surgery he could do for me. I was relieved.
My doctor said that depression could affect you and how you heel. I am don't like the idea of anti depressants b/c my parents took me to therapist a fewyears ago and basically forced me to take it, but said no and left and are over used. So should I take them, maybe a mild one. He was talking about zoloft.
I'm sorry to hear you're going through a lot right now with your physical pain. But it sounds like there's much hope with the upcoming surgery. For me, I notice my depression more so when I feel stuck in a situation. I start feeling like a victim and then I get angry because I just want someone to blame. It's when I come back to,"ok I'm in control of how I'm going to deal with this, or how I'm going to feel about this," that I start feeling less depressed. It sounds like you're feeling down about your situation because you feel that you're not in control. Watch what messages you are giving yourself. Are you telling yourself untrue things? That can make you feel bad and lead to depressed feelings.
I did start taking Zoloft about 2 months ago, and I do feel less moody and reactive on it. I feel less body aches too. I only take 25 mg at night. I think it helps, but I feel self talk is really key. Try to stay positive and grateful. And good luck with your surgery and with your decision about Zoloft.
Maybe I'm missing something, but the only reason you would consider AD is because you think it will make you heal quicker? If you are a happy person, yes, your chances of a speedy recovery are better, but I don't think that alone requires AD. Do you think you need AD? That's the real question. Don't let us decide that for you. Happy thoughts and quick healing are my wishes for you.
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