I keep scaring myself with the thought that I might kill myself. I always start to analyze the thought and I think I scare myself even more. I think, ok why do I think this thought maybe there is no real point to life, everday is the same old thing. How many more years will I have to wait in order to die, or what's the real reason we are here. I know I love to live and the thought of killing myself or dying really scares me, even if it would be a natural death, I am so afraid to die. That's another thought that comes in to my mind while analyzing, Why are we here if we have to die at the end anyway, what's the point, or we have to suffer the loss of our loved ones at one point or another. I don't want to think these things anymore. I want to never have these stupid thoughts anymore, I want to live in the moment like Carolyn says. I know I love to live, I love to be with my 6 month year old baby, to hold him and kiss him, I have fun at work, with my family and friends, I love to be with my husband. So why do I keep thinking this thought. I think it so much it makes me feel so different from others and sometimes I feel like I will have to live like this for the rest of my life and I don't want to. I want to just be able to live without questioning anything anymore. I know I might not make any sense at all, but if I do to someone outthere, I would appreciate your help.
Thank You,
Veronica

did u share this with any one?
u have to go and see some one!
did u loose some one close and then u started thinking about things like that?
i'de love to talk to u
tuti

Dear Veronica,

Please review lessons, 2,3,& 10... Remember: it is NOT the thought that is the problem...it is the WAY we think.

When you start with the ugly thought: 1. notice 2. accept 3. breathe 2-4 for 20 seconds 4. brief comfort (i.e. "I am a good and worthy person. I can't wait to do my day.") 5. get BUSY (physically)

It takes about 2 minutes at the most to detour around "ugly" - Be consistant... do this EVERY time for 7 days in a row and let me know if it isn't a tad better... I believe in you, Carolyn