I got the program in the beginning of January and I really hoped that it will lead me on the road to recovery. It gave me something to look forward to at a time when I was really starting to lose hope. I've always been a negative person... always feeling inferior and always finding a fault in myself. I'm just too used to it and it gets me so down.

I would say it was much more noticeable when I started working when I was about 24. I'm now 34 and those negative feelings from the past still haunt me. Feelings of being incompetent... feelings of not being good enough... not being assertive enough... and generally not a positive thought within me. I've always had my supervisors praise me for my work and achieved good ratings but I always feel like I'm a sham. And right now, it seems like I'm losing so much focus and concentration that it is adversely affecting my performance.

I'm also divorced (about 3 1/2 years ago) after 6 years of marriage. That threw me into a whole different depression whirlwind which I used as an excuse for a long time. My negative feelings were there before my marriage and they're still here now. I initially did go on some anti-depressants right after my divorce but I never felt it really helped. I've always been reluctant to go on it again but I feel like I don't have too much options left. I've gone to a counselor consistently for the last 3 years and he has not advised me to take any anti-depressants. I've been at this way too long.

Maybe I'm expecting too much progress at this point from the program. Perhaps someone can give me some feedback on this point. I've memorized the positive statements on the week 3 lesson card but I still don't really believe it. The last few weekends have been really really rough on me. I'm starting to lose hope and I don't know if I can sustain these bouts for that much longer. It feels like the hardest thing in the world to go through. I don't want to be depressed and unhappy. Maybe I just need some feedback to give me back a little hope.... for now.

I understand how you feel. I am now 30 and have dealt with similar feelings for half my life. Honestly, I got the tapes in 2001 and used them for a little while and put them away. They helped, but I did not use them the way I should have. I went back a couple of years later and tried them again. It was a better experience for me. The first time I used them, I think I thought they were bogus on some level. That isn't good, and it's going to hinder your progress. I think you really have to believe in yourself and the capabilites of the tapes to help you. I have been in therapy and it has helped me. I have come to understand that I need to be easier on myself (I know, easier said than done) and to love myself. Believe these people when they praise you...I am sure they wouldn't do it if they didn't feel it. I can say that the program takes some time to sink in and you need to take it easy. Believe in yourself. Good luck.

Thanks for the reply. From the moment I heard the commercial I was interested in the program. When I saw the infomercial, I was sold. I really believe that it can work for certain people but I'm starting to doubt whether it can for me. I don't want to waste any more of my life being like this. I know I need to believe.... but believing in myself is something that I haven't learned how to do.