Hi guys I have not written a while and I have been doing good for the most part. BUt I still feel weird but not afraid. I have derealization which really use too and a little bit still freaks me out. I question everything. But I have stop myself from panicking and making them important but I still think of them and analize them sometimes i think this going to be has good has it gets is this recovery i m a little nervous but I am a worrier ( arent we all) I am having a baby in Dec and really just want to enjoy my time and not worrry about this silly stuff. Is this me being stuck am I on my way home. Just a little confused would love to hear some responses thanks God Bless Eileen

Eileen
Congratulations on your baby to be! I have been where your at and can say with 100% certainty, that you are on your way to recovery!!! At first you panic and then eventually it runs it course, it looses it's power and you start to think...bring it on...been here, done that and I'm still sane and I'm still standing! The dp and worriesome thoughts are no different. You will get to a point where the dp doesn't alarm you any longer. You know what it's about, you know it will pass, you know it holds no true power over you. I believe the further away from the experience you get, the stronger your certainty will be. I use to wonder everyday when this bad nightmare would leave my existence. The more I wondered about it, the longer I held on to it. I just started living again, continued my worriesome thoughts, but did not allow them to deter me from what it was I planned to accomplish for that day or moment. Eventually the anxiety subsides. It's a gradual process. Over time you'll be able to look back and see a HUGE improvement. You'll start living for the moment and dreading less of the future. I think your new baby is gonna keep you busy. I see this as a positive step in the direction of recovery for you. He/she will be your new focus. Not to say that parenting itself doesn't bring about a whole other layer of worry, but you will find just how strong and amazing a woman you really are. As you move away from the experience, except that there will be days when the anxiety visits, however they are O>N>L>Y visits. I get them at times, yet I know they will pass. Life is bound to bring about stress, but once you reconize it for what it is...it's power is lost. Take care of yourself in the meantime.

Christine

Congrats on the baby ..
1st off I would like to say also Congrats on the panicy feelings that you made stop wish I could do that , And by the way when you have the baby you will be so occupied that you will not have the time to think .. except when you try to get that nap in LOL.. take it from me I know all to well how that felt but it was a great feeling .. also your right every one had those thoughts ..ugg wish they would leave us alone .. but I am so proud of you with taking care of the panic attacks the way that you are .. just distract yourself when you go to think just start counting in your head or something like that its what I do . it really sounds stupid but helps alot ~!! I hope all is well with you and congrats again on the baby ..
~~Christina~~