I've been having this huge problem that I've convinced myself I can't just listen to music anymore and enjoy it. Anytime I hear music or see people enjoying it I get in my head and go "oh yeah, I'm in my head when music is playing. Well, I've been practicing letting it flow and trying to "accept" the thought, whatever that means, and at times I feel I can do this and still enjoy music. After a while though I get depressed that I have to do this. I'm a guitar player, I love music! I've always believed it is connected to us spiritually ,and can even heal. I guess this is why my brain has chose this to obsess about. I mean it seems a coincidence that since I've started this program I've developed a new obsession like this that is a million times worse than obsessing about blinking or swallowing. I'd take those back in a minute. I just can't help think (catastrophize) that music will never be the same for me again. That just kills me inside. I've been listening to it anyway, I figured I had to expose myself to music, which depresses me that I have to "expose" myself to music, but it's always in the back of my head that enjoying music will never be as good again. I pray that will never come to fruition. I guess what I'm saying is I really don't understand accepting these thoughts. I know that trying to analyze them or give them fear only makes them stronger, but I feel I'm trying to ignore these thoughts more than accept them. How can I ever accept these terrible obsessions? I guess I'm just kind of going through a pity party, asking myself why me. I just want my old self back. I'm doing the work and I know it takes time, but I feel like the longer this goes on the less able I'll be able to truly enjoy such a large part of my spirit again. My heart goes out to all of you suffering through this. PEACE and LOVE

maybe you should tell yourself the reason you can't listen to music is because of your anxiety. It's just thoughts. There is nothing wrong with music . It can be pleasureful. It can be great. It can sooth. Start thinking only good thoughts about music. It won't get better over night but it will get easier everyday. Soon you will start to believe the trouth about music and beable to listen to it again.