I'm starting a new jobMon., and I 'm scared to death...I keep thinkng that I'll fail, make a fool of myself, no one will like me,
and I won't be able to saty there the whole 8 hrs.I have to though because me and family are facing some real money problems right now.I'm feeling a lot of pressure.Ugh.
I've been obessing over this so much that I can't sleep well, and, I wake up with my palms sweating. Sheesh....I'm in hell.lol.
I'm dreading Monday.I'm trying already to find a way out of going to work Monday, but there isn't one.I just have to go.This job is also out of my comfort zone,so, I'm nervous about the driving part too!!!lol.
I'm at a loss here and I don't know what to say to myself to make me feel comforted.
Any and all advice welcome!

SkyEyes,
Starting a new job can be quite anxiety producing. I have done it many many many times. I have had over 20 jobs in 13 years. However...the first day is usually all introduction. My last job had an orientation. It was a get to know the company and get to know eachother type of deal. We had free lunch etc...

At most of the other jobs I have had the first day you get shown around and introduced to the job itself. I find that there is not alot of pressure during that time as you already have the job, no one is expecting alot out of you on the first day or even the first week. You will do fine and you need your rest. Please try to think positive...the first day will go really fast and you are doing a good thing for yourself and your family!! Good luck! I have confidence in you! ~Flutterby

Hi Sky,

Sorry to hear you are feeling so much pressure. I'm sure I will feel the same way when I have to reenter the work force before too long. When that time comes for me, I will use self talk like the following:

What if...you actually find a way to enjoy the drive out of your comfort zone - listen to Lucinda or your favorite music on the way

What if...you drive out of your comfort zone and feel a great sense of accomplishment

What if...you find you actually love the job and are glad to be there

What if...you meet some new people that you like

What if...the money you earn really helps your family

What if...you come home really proud because you faced the fear and did it anyway

What if...this turns out to be the best move you have ever made

I can relate to your fear - this is a huge step for you. But try to look at it this way, if by chance this is not the right place for you, pick yourself up, brush yourself off, and go to something else. Remember, there is no such thing as failure.

I wish you all the best - Please keep me posted. Sue

Thanx you guys so much for the kind, encourging words. I guess I'm a just a little scared about tomorrow, and I'm probably over-reating to it.You know how we over react to everything.lolThe anticpation is always the worst, but, I know it won't be that bad when I get there. One plus is that I worked there about 10 yrs. ago so, I have a bit of an advantage. It was about that time that my anxiety took hold and I quit working there.I can't believe I'm going back there!lol. I feel lucky now though, because I know sooooooomuch more about anxiety and what to do about it. It's kinda weird the guy who hired me told me that he remembered me, and he said something to the effect that he remembered me having "problems".
Right away, I thought, OMG, He KNOWS I have anxiety!!!lol.I think that's another reason why I'm kinda nervous.I don't want to repeat past mistakes....
Thank you guys so much for responses.It did help me. I hope someday I'll be able to return the kind words... I'll keep the both you in my prayers.
God bless,
heidi

Good luck tomorrow, Skyeyes! I don't think I can add much more to what others have said. The only thing I would remind you of is that you don't have to look at your last period of employment with this company as a time of "past mistakes." You had different experiences then -- you don't have to look at them as mistakes. Just remember -- stay in the precious present moment. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is a long way off. Look for the positives tomorrow -- they're out there. Good luck and keep us posted!

Moutaingirl,
Thank you for your response! I really do appreciate it.
Well, I went to work,felt all the symptoms but I forced to myself to smile. A woman from the office came in the room I was in and looked at me and said, You look so HAPPY! LOL. I faked it.lol. I just smiled and said, Thanx, I'm just glad to be back to work . You know what they say: FAKE IT TIL YOU MAKE IT. It was rough at times, but I took it one minute at a time, and kept reminding myself that doing this was for my own good, I would be proud of myself for the effort.I am. Before I knew it, the day was over and I was on my way home. I DID IT!! WOW. I feel proud, and I'm not as anxious about tomorrow as I was today. I'm taking my strength back.I'm going to do whatever it takes to get through this condition and elimanate it from my life.
I wish the same for you and everyone else here. I hope you pick up on my positive energy and run with it.
God Bless,
sky

Hi SkyEyes,

I read this string of postings today and when I read your last entry tears came to my eyes. It just made me feel so happy to see how it worked out for you. Congratulations on your big step forward.

emmie

Good job SkyEyes!! I knew that you could do it!! ~Flutterby

Way to go SkyEyes!!!! I'm so happy for you. Now that you have the first day under your belt, tomorrow should be even easier. I like that "fake it till you make it" saying. My Mom has told me that for years. You know, maybe there is something to it. Even though we may think we are faking it, we are at least telling ourselves positive statements. We give ourselves permission to do things that we wouldn't do otherwise.

Here's to many more positive days ahead. Thanks for the positive energy. Its always welcome in my neck of the woods!

Hi Sky!

What a wonderful post - so uplifting. YOU DID IT!!!! You should be very proud of yourself

I am so happy for you and wish you more success - Sue

Thanx you guys so much for your support !
You guys are my pals,and I really apperciate all of you taking the time to respond to me.It really helped me a great deal.This BB is really a godsend.
All of you are in my prayers,
Sky