hi, i just got the attacking anxiety program recently and was really excited to see the results that it could provide. Just because ocd is so tough and hard that i was excited to see what i could be like without a lot of the anxiety and obsessive thoughts. my story kind of goes like this. i got the program a week or so before i was going to study abroad for a semester (i am a junior in college). i was really excited from the get go because finally a structured program that really knew what i was going through and could really help me. Well anyways i was ready to put my everything into this program and did and saw some small changes right away-- this was after only two lessons. then my worst fear seemily came true. i was having a lot of anxiety around the fact that i might go crazy or lose it sometime. i had been eating beef in this foreign country for a couple of weeks (canned beef, hamburger, etc) like normal when i found out about the mad cow disease and how it affects humans. i couldnt believe that something like that actually exists. this disease can hit you in 4, 10, 15 years and bascially makes you go crazy and become schrophrenic-- and then you die. i was like how could this happen after what i went through and just when i was about to turn the corner and get better something like this happened. i was really scared and did know what to do because if i was going to get it right away it would be better than not knowing--- ofcourse control is important to someone with anxiety. i started obsessing about about it constantly and am really scared about it. its just not one of those things that you can say its just anxiety because its real. and about a month after that i started to have way more anxiety than usual. i couldnt go anywhere at all the anxiety was so intense. i also could not wait for anything because i would need to leave right away because i felt i couldnt stay and wait too much anxiety. i basically have panic attacks all day long now, intense ones when i leave the apartment im at. its really scary since i had panic attacks before, but i could still go places and enjoy myself. now im scared to go back home because i have to leave soon. i went abroad to get better and try to be this new person and now i have this disease hanging over my head and i have panic attacks all the time.
i guess advice is helpful right now.