Hi there,
I have been through the program twice before a couple of years ago and felt the best I have felt in my whole life. I was in college then and had everything figured out. However, now I graduated college, got a job, also got a boyfriend after 6 years of being single and also, I'm not a citizen and is waiting to here if I will get my job visa in 2 weeks. So what's the problem? Well, a while back I started to worry obsessively about the outcome of my future, If I will stay in the states, what's gonna happen with my boyfriend and I, if I will be able to move back, what I really want to work since I really don't like my current job. I don't even know if I want the visa since I have been thinking about going back to europe because I miss my family, but at the same time I'm so used to being in the states and I'm afraid of this whole life change. I sit at work and worry all day long to the point when I have panic attacks, can't seem to get me out of my own head. I also worry obsessively about my boyfriend and whether or not this is right and if we will be able to stick together if we were to move. He is also from europe and wants to eventually go back.

I don't even know where to start and how to deal with all this, I'm afraid I will make "Bad" decisions and I will lose everything, but I feel that I need the change as well. I'm so confused, stressed, sad, anxious I don't even know how to, or where to start the program again in order to deal with all of this. I just want to feel great again and feel that I'm secure in myself and can start look at things in a positive way. I feel so lost and scared I just want to cry.

Please, I need all the help I can get, would someone want to email or chat with me about this?

I hope you are all doing good!

Hang in there. Remember it's just anxiety about changes in your life right now. Do get caught up in the thoughts and keep moving forward.

Take Care,