Has anyone struggled with constantly thinking or "monitoring" themselves about how they feel? I seem to wake up every morning thinking, "Am I anxious today?" etc. I'm constantly obsessing about my mental state and my anxiety. But then, If I find myself not thinking about my anxiety, I then immediately start obsessing about "why" Im not obsessing. I can't seem to be able to stop the vicious circle. And every time I start to obsess about "obsessing", that creates more anxiety. Am I making any sense to anyone? Can anyone relate?
Sometimes I wish I could just shut my brain off. I've used compassionate dialogue, positive thought replacement and breathing techniques. But because it happens so many times thruout the day, I'm so mentally exhausted. I'm either obsessing and anxious or constantly talking to myself to get thru it. So, it seems I'm never free from it. It consumes me. Can anyone offer advice?

Right now i am doing the same thing. i just went back on meds yesterday. These next few days are going to be hell until it starts working. I am constantly nervous and jittery and cannot sleep at all. I worry you know what if in the future i am still feeling like this. i cant go on living like this but i dont want to die. and before when i felt better i was like gee i feel good today and all the stupid thoughts came back. Hopefully the meds will help me escape the obsessive horrible thoughts

Me too. Infact I have concidered meds also, but then I will only freak out about that! I am trying to focus on the fact that the breathing, and positive self talk is helping, regardless of how much I have to do it. I am hoping that eventually these thoughts will come as naturally as the scary negative ones do. Practice makes perfect... I can relate, hang in there.

Ive fought my thoughts for so long i guess i am physically tired of it and cant do it anymore. had major breakdown the last few days so i went back on it. the hardest part is waiting for the meds tokick in. think of it this way if you had cancer would u take a drug to help you? you and none of us should have to live like this it isnt fair. I am also takin pills to help me relax and sleep. and i feel a bit better since i took them so... good luck