Hey all! Having a rough few days. I have been having problems for about two years now. I have developed sever anticipatory anxiety and agoraphobia. I feel nervous even when I'm at home. It's kinda like i have that unreal feeling all the time and feel completely out of it. Add the scary thoughts and I'm a complete mess. Does anyone ever get this way? about 13 years ago i had a bad trip on shrooms and I'm scared this is what caused it. It was my only time and now i'm harping on it. All my doctors tell me thats not it. I am so scared of never feeling connected again. Please tell me I'm not going crazy.

If you were going crazy, you would not fear it.

My cousin has schizo, refuses to take meds and in HER mind is THE normal one...to her we are all crazy. But she is the one making fly swatters out of 3" nails sticking out of baseboard trim, wearing safety goggles so the spiders do not lay their eggs in her eyes!

I think you are thinking about the shrooms incident ALOT, worrying about it, and that is bringing one a TON of fear, then symptoms of feeling unreal and out of it. We can cause our own symptoms= psychosomatic symptoms which are caused by mental processes of the sufferer rather than immediate physiological causes. If a medical examination can find no physical or organic cause, or if an illness appears to result from emotional conditions such as anger, anxiety, depression or guilt, then it might be classified as psychosomatic.

Sounds TOO easy! I was there too for 8 months to varying degrees. I did not leave my house, not even to the mailbox. I thought there was NO way I could feel this out of it and nothing be wrong. I WAS wrong! Get busy with something else. Take the program out. DO relaxation as that is a BIG help too.

Corky...Im bernard.>We have exactly the same condition...Don't put a name to the feelings of unreality...I am/used to be scared of my kids just living in general...Don't google anything...It is anxiety....I'm telling you my mistake was to let it take hold, and it took hold to every part of my life...You have to float with it...Iv'e had that unreality feeling for 10 months...It's all stress...What's scary is, to have these thoughts and feel unreal...I have said in the past that everyone else has it easy on this board. If you need to talk I'm here...Don't let it go any further, than it has to.

I truly understand being scared all the time and stuff. I have to say though, that I started the program in March and I have been feeling sooo great. I constantly listen to the tapes and the relaxation and have been reading a lot of the supplemental books. I even tapered off my anti-depressant and guess what? A few weeks ago I went for my first mammogram and then they said I needed to go back. I went back, and now I need a biopsy. Worse yet, it's scheduled for August 2 and I go on vacation July 22! I am trying soo hard to relax, tell myself I am going to be okay etc. etc. Breast cancer doesn't run in my family(not that it always has to), I eat sooo good, don't smoke, don't drink and I try to excercise almost every day. These days have been truly trying and scary to say the least. I wanted to post earlier but my computer says "error on page" when I tried to start a discussion. I've even talked to a cousin and other people who've had biopsies and everything turned out fine. I don't know what's on my mind more, the actual prospect of having cancer or my anxiety getting way out of control. I can do this right? Please, reinforcements would be nice from anyone right now.

Karmerri

Hi Karmerri,

You are doing a great job with your program KEEP IT UP! There is nothing to be scared of. I know your mind always wants to think negative but we have to keep our thinking straight. So you had to go back again and retake another mammagram? And they decided you need a biopsy. Everything will probably be OK. Getting a biopsy done dosen't always mean BAD THINGS. Several years ago when I had my intestines checked for polps the doctor told me he had done a biopsy on something he found, and he told me eveything was fine. I didn't even know I had it done because I was out.

Have a great time on your vacation and don't worry. Worrying does you no good and it makes you feel ill. Like Lucinda says WORRY IS A WASTE OF TIME AND IT TAKES YOU OUT OF THE PRECIOUS PRESENT MOMENT. YOU WILL BE FINE!

Keep in touch and have a great vacation!

Dona Dry

Your not crazy and it's not from magic mushrooms !!!!Hand here for help.


Sincerely,Sit

Thank you so much everyone. I really appreciate evrything. Karmerri your in my prayers keep being strong. I have had two friends have to go for biopsies on there breast. Of course they were freaking out. It turned out to just be fatty tissue.

Hello Corky
You are not going crazy, I know how you feel. I have felt that way on and off for the past 5 years. I justed started the program and I find helpful and difficult at the same time. Remember it is only OCD, keep your head up and thing will always get better.

That "unreal" feeling is so creepy! I'll be walking through a store and think: "look at those people with their busy, complicated, imperfect lives - and they're doing just fine." I feel like I'm from another planet sometimes. My vision bothers me. I wear progressive lenses in my glasses and my contacts are monovision (right eye near, left eye distance.) I'm thinking about my vision constantly, it makes me feel spacey.

Corky1 and Dona Dry

Thank you for your replies, prayers and encouragement. You are right about staying positive and diving back into the program to help me through this. The people on this site are awesome b/c they truly understand how each other think!! Thanks again.

Karmerri