Well, this has become a pattern. Every friday before I go to work or I'm at work...When I was in the bathroom one day, I looked down and I noticed that my hair looked gray. Now that just freaked me out because I'm only 19 and is it even possible to have hair that color down there? Everytime I am about to go to work or go in that bathroom I just freak out and start obsessing about it. Will somebody please give me some advice if they were in my situation? I even cut it a little cuz I was obsessed it was that color...
I think deep down when I think about it, I think well it was really this color, no guy would want to be intimate with me and I even obsess sometimes what if I have a penis when I know I don't.
I remember reading an article once about a girl who was born with this so I just started thinking well what if that means I do?

These are just thoughts and things I heard. It doesn't mean it relates to me. I will under react and let these thoughts go. No big deal. I can handle these thoughts.

Some advice i can give myself:

This is just my OCD talking. So what if I let it win this time around? I will beat next time.

Hi Noelle,

You are right! It IS just your OCD. Sometimes that is the best reply to those thoughts. You have a bad habit of overreacting to thoughts (I understand this very well.) It's important to allow the thoughts to be there. I know this is frustrating but your very resistance to them is what keeps them there and coming back. Allow the thoughts to come and go. Do not attach to them. Tell yourself "So what?" "So big deal" "So what's it to ya?" and on and on. When you develop the habit of "it doesn't matter one way or the other" you will no longer be experiencing anxiety over it. This takes time - patience and persistence.

Read Stop Obsessing by Foa and Wilson. The Imp of the Mind by Lee Baer. They have wonderful phrases to borrow to help soothe that little girl within. Let her know you will not abandon her.

"Oh, it's just thoughts again"

Keep busy in the present moment. You will succeed. Remember that it's not about eliminating. It's about moving through. It's about allowing thoughts. After all, they are just thoughts. You feel uncomfortable because you give them power with your resistance. They are not real and it's time to come to terms with that.

Keep us posted.

Hi Boon,

Thanks again for some of your encouraging words. It really makes me feel so comforted that someone cares enough to write me back. Well, I had a moment. See, I was in the store and I saw a picture of Rachel McAdams, and it automatically brought me back to a scene I watched over and over again that was sexual and she was in it. The what if thoughts came in again and I felt very uncomfortable. But now, I can say-- Okay, I am feeling like this for a reason--The question is why? Of course I am feeling this way again because I am scaring myself with things from the past. I can look at the whole picture and say, it's the situation not the person. It's two people making love in a very detailed way so of course I feel these sensations. I'm gonna float with this and let it pass. I will beat it next round.