I have a severe problem with procrastination which in turn, gives me more anxiety and depression. Having trouble working, I don't clean my apartment etc. Is this common for people suffering from anxiety and depression.

Hi beckman, I saw your name and dropped in and dropped in to say Hi, I think you are doing fantastic work in staying with the program, being open and honest so others can know that they are not alone. I hope you go and get that job that wants you, do you want it? If yes go for it, it's waiting for you. Zelda I don't know if it's I don't know if it's common although I have this problem also. Regina

I notice myself procrastinating those things that cause me anxiety. lol, which is about everything. Fear is usually the paralizer for me. I have a difficult time dealing with something for fear of how it will make me feel. Some things are difficult for me to face as some of them are difficult things that would cause anyone anxiety to face. An example would be I have kept putting off starting my 4th step in alcoholics anonymous. It's painful and fearful to look at my past as I have a rough past with many things that are painful to start probing at. But I have to face them and work the steps or I'll go back out drinking and to drink is to die. So that is a normal anxiety, that all procrastinate to do in some form. I also put off finishing an application for a job I want, because it gives me anxiety to try and paste together references and dates of employment. I hate this part of the application, because I have struggled with addictions and all my employers in the past have been effected by it. I can almost guarantee that all my ex employers will say that I'm a great worker, get along well , works hard, and so on, but I know they will say something about my drinking and gambling. Which really doesn't matter, because I have been completely honest with my this place of employment that wants me to go to work with them. I 've already told them of my addictions and my past in detail. And they still want me to go to work. Anyway, you all probably didn't want to hear about all that. It's just that this has been on mind all day today. procrastintation in some areas like that, but on the other end of the spectrum, I won't slow down on doing things. All or nothing, black and white thinking. Hopefully, with prayer and time and work in this program I can find a balance that seems to come easy for some. God bless and daily prayers for you all.

Zelda, I am EXTREMELY bad about this. It tortures me that I act like life will go on forever -- that I have all the time in the world to take care of the necessary tasks in my life. I will buy cards for all types of occasions and then never send them. After a couple of weeks I think, "Well, there's no sense in sending it now. That would look stupid this late!" I will let my house go forever and not clean. I keep all kinds of magazines and books thinking, "I'm going to sit down and read these. I'll do several a day and toss them as I'm through with each." Only, that day never comes, so here they are all piled all over my house. I am distraught over this because I'm ashamed for anyone to come into my house, and the sad thing is I have 2 grown children and 4 grandchildren that I worry about their not coming over very often but I know my laziness in cleaning is the reason. I have no desire to shop or buy pretty things for the house which is very unusual for a woman. I especially don't shop since I've gotten this anxiety disorder where I almost fear people when I'm out in public -- I feel like I want to get in my car and get home asap. So, yes, there are those out there like you with these quirks. Hope that comforts you somewhat. Maybe we could help and encourage one another to get things done - ??? Take care.

my life story..