I received an e-mail From Dr. Bassett advising me to get established in this peer group, and so here I am. I am hoping this is the answer, I have worked in the EMS field for 27 years as Fire Rescue(retired now) but during those years I had a lot of experience working with people with emotional problems, and depression. I am great at helping others, but not myself. I have become different over the last 15 years, where I do not like what I am becoming, or have become...A recluse, angry, depressed, miserable at times. anyway here I am. I am ready to work.

hey bond007. Hang in there with the rest of us. It gets really hard at times, but I just got the program in the mail today & started it immediately. I have problems with severe depression for the last year. Thinking about seeing psychiatrist & taking meds, but don't want to. If they truly would help I probably would. Hoping this program will help so I won't have to take meds.
Anyway, I'm a guitar player, and a fairly decent one, drop me a line if you want to chat or want some pointers. Take care.

Hi Bobby!
My husband had came upon an accident and saw the nmother dead while her 3 children were in the car. The kids are alive. THAT incident right there has "changed him" and not for the good. How could you deal with that being an EMT? He thought about becoming a 1st Responder after that accident, but yeesh his attitude. How did you cope the first few times?

I'm an angry individual myself! I know where you are coming from with that!

Hi Bond 007. Welcome. You have lots of time to listen to the cds on the road.
I hope you stick with this. This will work for you.
Glen

Hello everyone, sorry i have not been around, like I said......been so busy with work, that have not been able to even start, I talked with a person at midwest who was very helpful, because I almost sent the program back unopened, due to time restrictions, but she talked me into doing certain parts while on the road, and I said I would do that, I have not started yet, but I am home now and will take the program with me when I leave for the week. I have been ok lately, no real slumpy moods as of yet........ I bought a guitar recently, something I have always wanted, and I commited to taking up something that I have always wanted to do, to at least say I did it, not talk about it.......my expectations from my past of being a famous rock star, are not realized, but.....I'm not dead yet, so its never to late to try!!!lol....anyway that has given me a little inspiration, it made me feel good to finally do something, instead of dream or obsess about.........

Did I not do that correct? This is blue dora and I am just starting, there should be a real honest reply seen before anyone see's this one unless I misunderstood what I was just doing.

Reclusive, angry, depressed? Hello?? Bondo, call me src. Welcome to the new day.

Hi BOND007 -- I would try and contact somebody at the MIDWEST CENTER. They may be able to recommend something or suggest a way to still stay a part of the program while on the road. I would encourage you to stay involved but obviously something has to work out. I hope it does and you can begin to take advantage of the opportunity this program is offering!!! Let us know,

Jen

Thanks for the welcome, I haven't started yet, and I am unsure if I should return the program because I drive a tractor trailer now, out on the road all week, home on weekends, I don't know if I can do this while driving, if I can, I will continue, but it will be insufficient for me, if I can only do it on weekends, I wasn't thinking of this when I ordered the program. I am torn between starting at a later time when I have time at home, or trying to squeeze it in while driving. If I can do it while driving, it will be great because I have a lot of time to listen. It just won't be 1oo% of my concentration. Can anyone tell me if I can do it while driving? I would appreciate your input. By the way, I am out on the road all week, so I won't see your answer until Saturday........Have a great week everyone!

Keep in mind the Golden Rule: Love your neighbor as yourself. (Don't forget the self part)

Welcome Bond, Double ooh seven...I just got it. Didn't mean to call you BONDO, LOL

Welcome Bill and Bondo

hello- Bill here. I've just started, but your story and several others sound just like mine. I can solve everyone else's problems, but not my own. It's as if by curing them I will cure myself, but it hasn't worked. I think I realize that I am avoiding my own life by getting involved in everyone else's.

Hey there-
I'm like you in that I'm good at helping people with their problems. My whole family calls me as the mediator. Most of my family lives around LA. Whenever something happens, I get calls from everyone.
I was dealing with very stressful things with my immediate family (daughter's illness, daughter's OCD, and so on) - big problems! Very big. I almost lost my oldest daughter twice. Neither of my daughter's have finished high school due to their problems. But, that isn't their fault. They'll get there. Just not as quickly as their friends. (Very sad).

I got through that alright, but then when I finally let my family know that it was all just too much, they backed off (apologisng profusely) and my daughter got better (very slowly), it all hit me.

I became depressed and anxious. I've been mildly depressed most of my life, but over the last few years I've become cynical, disgusted, angry...and I don't do anything unless I absolutely have to - grocery store or dr. I have no social life. I don't do anything.

I spend most of my days sleeping (nights too).
I finally decided I need help.

I mainly got this program for my daughter with OCD, but I decided to do it too.
So far, she's only done the relaxation tape - which is like morphine to her.
I haven't been able to get her on this support group or to start the lessons yet. But she will.

Anyway, I hope you get some help here. My father has such terrible anxiety and on and off depression his whole life. He's gotten worse and worse. He hasn't been able to leave the house for years. Has to be highly medicated to go to the dr, and the dr has to be on the first floor. My mom has to push him in a wheelchair. He's 77 now, and has pretty much given up. Just waiting to die.

I'm glad to hear you are doing this. I know that if we don't, it will just get worse and worse, until we are like my dad. I see that happening with me.

I don't like what I'm becoming either.

Good luck to you. Big Hugs