Hi. I am new to the program. I am waiting to get my tapes in the mail. I've heard nothing but good things about them. I have been suffering from depression. I've always delt with depression ever since i was a lil kid. But now it's serious. I have two little girls that are ill. My 18 month old just had open heart surgery. And my youngest which is now 4 mo has multiple things wrong. She was in the hospital the first 2 months of her life. Her discharge diagnosis is polysystic kidney disease, beckwith wiedmann syndrome, sleep apnea, macraglassia (large tounge)hoping to have surgery),large kidneys,atial flutter (hole in heart witch causes high heart rate), high blood pressure. She also has a trach. And that is for her sleep apnea and floppy airway. We also just found out she cant hear. We are sending her to a specialist because they say she has persistence of apparent middle ear pathology? I am not sure what that is. If anyone has any information about any of these health problems please get back with me. I need to know as much as i can for her. Her name is Mariah Nevaeh. She is my miracle baby. Please keep my family in your prayers. The Holt Family.

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You and your family are in my prayers. And I'm sure you're in many other members' prayers as well. This is a wonderful place for support. Please stay in contact with us with your postings. You're so strong to have made it this far--and looking for more strength through the program just shows how much you care and how intelligent you are. I don't have any specific information about your baby's conditions, but I've always found a Merck manual helpful to give me basic knowledge to help me keep up with the doctors. And it seems if you research conditions, just like you're doing, and show some knowledge it makes a difference when trying to relate to the medical world. So many prayers your way--t.

ty for your feedback frmthfld. god bless.. I believe everything is going to be okay. I believe mah daughters are here for a reason. I consider my youngest my mirable baby. She has been through so much. I know she is going to be okay. The reason i feel that so strongly is because for one i know we serve a big big god and i believe he is a healing god. But to make a long story short... I was going to have an abortion with her. I already had a 3 year old lil boy and a 6 month lil gurl with heart problems. I was soo against abbortion before i got pregnant with her but i geuss it is differen when you are in the situation to make that disicion. Me and my husband went to the abortion clinic and payed for the services to get all the tests done. They told us to coe back in 2 more days to get the procedure done...and we did. Right when we were getting my extra clothes out of the back seat there was an old man standing in an alley waving us down. We went over there to him and he was crying really hard. He kept saying repeatedly please dont do this. Your baby has a purpose and god will take care of you. It was so wierd. There were several other couples..and he wanted us. he wasnt even at the facility. there was a bobwire fence in an ally. he was standing on the other side of it.....I believe he was one of her angels. She is now almost 5 mo old. Yes she has some health issues but SHE IS OKAY!

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God Bless you and your sweet precious baby girl. I will keep you in my prayers. Im so sorry you, and her have to go through such horrific things. Just know that that little angel can feel your love and thats #1. Please take care

Thank you for your reply Nicole. She is accually doing very well now. God is healing her everyday. Her hole in her heart is now closed and they diagonosed her with polysystic kindey disease because she had multiple cycts on the kidney. They were saying she would have kidney failure and woul dhave to have a transplant....but guess what...we went to get an altersound a week ago and the cycts are GONE! It's funn you metion the love thing. Mah mother in law says to me all the time that she is getting better because the love and attintion we give her. And it would be a blessing to know that you are praying for her. There's nuttin like the power of prayer. If you ever need help or prayer i am here for you also. *hugs*