I think I may have found my worry that is causing me to have obsessive thoughts about other things....health etc.
My baby starting Kindergarten. He has been going to private pre-school but now he will be in public school (we live in a fairly small town too)he is growing up so fast! He's our only child and my pride and joy. But I think I may or may not be worrying about other things to keep my mind off of this. Anybody else have/had similar worries? He is excited about it, but I am worrying.

I know you posted this a while ago, but I feel your pain! My daughter started kindergarten yesterday and I have been having anxiety issues again because of it. I cried like a baby the day before she went and then today (the day after the first day). She is totally fine with it. She loves school and can't wait to go. She was in mother's day out a year ago for a couple of days a week but other than that she and my 3 year old have been with me full time so I'm really missing her and have really been upset about this big change. I think mainly because it is such a dramatic thing - once you are in school you are defined by it, and then later by work and kids, etc. It's like she is really growing up and it's really making me emotional!! Which doesn't help with the anxiety issues I already have!! How is your son doing in school now, and how are you doing?

Thanks for replying.
My son starts Kindergarten on the 30th. He is really excited about it too. He still goes to the private school twice a week for the summer and he does fine. It's just me that isn't taking it and you're right once he starts real school he'll be there all day 5 days a week for the next ~13 years! except for summer vacation. It just seems so weird to me, it doesn't bother my husband.

I was so glad to see other Moms worrying about the kindergarten step too! My son starts on the 5th (full days), he just turned 6 yrs old (we held him back) and even though he is definitely ready and so am I, I feel sooooo nervous, scared, excited etc. etc. My daughter who's 3 is starting preschool 2 days a week (half days) and although I've waited to have some of this "free" time, I will miss them both sooo much.

I am right there with you gals, my youngest is starting 8-27 PLUS I just took my oldest son to college last weekend. If you think your upset NOW wait until they are waving at you from there dorm room. UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

Oh, gosh Vegasmom.... I don't even want to think about college for them!! I still remember vividly my mom and my niece drying each other's tears when I drove out of the driveway to go to college!! Hope you all on this board do well this week and next sending your little ones off. I'm still sad about my baby being in school, but each day gets better. And its good for my son and me to have some alone time - which he didn't have like she did when she was young. I pray for all of us and our babies that they can be as productive as they can be and we can have some good time to ourselves!

My son starts tomorrow and my husband asked me if I wanted to go into work a little late and go with him to drop him off. At first I said yes then I realized I would probably be a wreck and cry!

You probably will cry, but it's okay - it's natural to feel that way and to express it. I think it's great that you all can go together for this big day and you should go if you can. You will always treasure the memory of help seeing your son off! We all went together to drop my daughter, too, last week and I did cry. But I was able to wait until I got in the car. Either way, you will be fine and you will be fine. Let us know how it goes!

I think I didn't say it the way I meant to. On my daughter's first day I took her because my husband had to work. I didn't cry that day. The next day my husband went with us and when we got back in the car I cried buckets! Isn't that funny. I was ok when I was by myself taking her but when I knew I had a strong shoulder to cry into the next day I took full advantage. 4202 - When you say you are having more obsessive thoughs probabaly as a result of your anxiety aobut your son going to school, what types of thoughts? I also get obsessive thoughts and hadn't in a long time, but the last couple of weeks they have come on pretty strong (even though I'm on Zoloft for anxiety). I get the kind that Lucinda talks about - like what if I do something crazy and hurt myself or my babies, which I know is absolutely ridiculous because I love my babies more than anything inthe world, but I think every now and then what if I were to flip out like you hear about people flipping out and do something like that. It scares me. But, I did read the other day about obsessive thoughts and it said that people who have those kinds of thoughts about hurting themselves or others are actually less likely than the average person to hurt anyone at all. So, that was comforting.

So, let us know how the drop off goes tomorrow. At least its just one day and then you get the weekend. This week I think I'm on edge because I'm emotional because she started school last Thur and then this is the first full week. It does get better with each day especially when you see all the stuff they do in class and how excited they are about it!

I've been having the bad scary thoughts too about hurting the ones I love or myself.
I'm actually going to the Dr. today to see if
I can be put on something mild to take the edge off. I was on celexa after I had Eric because I had anxiety/ppd and that seemed okay for me.
I actually can't go to drop him off since I am leaving early from work today I can't come in late tomorrow. I've had to take a lot of days off dealing with my "issues"

HEy gals kindergarten teacher here. And I just took my youngest of four to college. I was ready but still find myself crying and not okay with going into her room. BUt here is the thing that helps..I know that we would not want them to miss this for anything..to miss growing and having their own life...would not want them to stay so attached to us that they are stunted in their growth and life...It is scary, but it is their life...they have to live it...that is the hardest part...as Barb Johnson says to have a child is to have your heart walking outside of your body!!! Also, from the teacher side..they are so ready to blossom! It is always astounding to see how they become their own person and develop. Each stage has its own "preciousness", the mommy in us misses being the mommy of a baby, but they never stop being your child even married, my "little girl" becomes more and more precious..My mom told me that when I was concerned that my little tiny infant was going to be out of the crib ...Now I know what she meant..That's life...STill hard as we mourn the change that brings to our own life...but that gets better with time!

Well put sweetmomma!!!
My kids are in college now, my youngest in her sophomore year - 6 hours car ride away.
I cried when each started his/her first year. This year I was a bit sad but really OK.
I'm so proud of them for going away to college, choosing careers and pursuing their dreams.
My babies are becoming more and more independent and that's a good thing, a big positive.

Ahhh, but I do remember crying my eyes out with the first day of kindergarten with each one.
Awesome to know that we are capable of loving so much!!!!

Hugs!

Hey 4202,

How did it go at the doctor? I too got anxiety/PPD/OCD whatever this is after I went back to work from my maternity leave - I guess I just couldn't handle being a Mom, the "perfect" wife, Mom, and working full time. I too went on Celexa but then gained weight which is so depressing. I came off it a few months ago and am now trying Lucinda's tapes. Hope everything went well at the doctor's.

Amanda