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ya know, drinking isn't helping your anxiety. i would address that first. i'm sure you a good mother, just, kick the drinking, and if you still want to drink, do it while hes in bed, but remember, your his support system, his mother, have a glass of wine, or a beer, but i wouldn't be getting drunk.

Yes this is why i dont drink i was using it to stop my anxiety and it just makes it worse. I want to be a good my not to be judged cus im seeking help

seeking help is nothing to be ashamed of! at first, i didn't want to tell anyone i was in therapy, but, after it helped me so much, i don't really care. as people mature, they learn that, there are very few people in this world that DON'T need therapy, haha. drinking always made my anxiety worse. figures my anxiety started 1 week before my 21st birthday. grrr. anyways, i can have a glass or two of wine, but any more, and i get into that buzzed state, and that just feels like a panic attack to me, lol.

My husband has so much bagage from his past and I wanst aware of how much. His ex wife just took him to court for 850 a month I get no child support cus they cant find my ex and I have to work to support my son wich is hard with the anxiety i have. I was also just robbed at gun point at my job.

I just have so much to think about and this makes me feel like a bad mom. I can't let go of all the bad feelings

robbed at gun point? geeze! i think you need to start lookin for a new job. bagage is deff a tough one. one of my ex's decided to tell me after we were together that she used to be on heroin. well, it got to the point if i wanted to do something, she would say "no, don't, i might get upset and go back on heroin." baggage! its hard, but, life is always gonna throw speed bumps at ya. i would be very determined if i were you. it seems like your a very smart, caring woman caught in alot of junk that you weren't expecting. i can tell you are a great mother, and want the best, but i think a few of these speed bumps came at very inconvienent times. personally, i would do whatever i could to move to a safer area, stop drinking, completely if you can, and try starting fresh. you have the drive, you just have to find it.

Hi there I often think im not the best mom also its because I have panic attacks so bad and my daughter had anxiety and seperation anxiety also ... she will be 9 yrs old in aug.. but anyways alot of the time she is scared to be around me thinking that I will harm myself or thinking something will happen to me .. sometimes she even questions death of me and what would she do ..she asked me that and I didnt know how to respond . I have no support at all with my family and very few friends , I feel im hurting her more than helping her because sometimes she has to stay with her grandma because my anxiety/ panic level gets so bad .. I do not drink at all I take xanax when I need them and am going threw the program .. but not far into it yet .. but I know that your not a bad mom they always tell me that a bad mom always questions if she is one or not .. there is no doubt in my mind that you are not anything more than a great mother just hard times and things will evenentually come to an evn for you and I wish you the best if you ever want to talk to me just message me and we can talk my email address and yahoo name is all in my profile on here or even if you need someone to talk to just let me know I would be more than happy to call and talk to u .. beings we are in the same boat in some ways .. take care