Hi again Rowan, Sorry for all my typos in that post, I really rushed through it because of the baby, Im not that bad of a speller!

Hello everyone..I just read through all of the posts about panic disorder and infertiity. My husband and I have been dealing with infertility for about 3 years now. I was on Buspar 2 years ago and since going through the program over and over again I no longer need any meds. My problem was that I wasn't ovulating and I too was put on Clomid(the max dose my gyno could give me) and still nothing. I have an appointment tomorrow with a fertility Dr. and let me tell you my panic level is up there. I also was telling myself that the reason I wasn't getting pregnant was because I wouldn't be a good mom and that my anxiety and panic would prevent me from doing my best. I also had the "what if" fear when I would hear of a mother hurting her children and I would think "Oh my what if I ever got that bad that I would do something like that"...then I listened to the tapes and there is a point that Lucinda says " If you can say to yourself at the end of that though...but I would never do that" and the scarey thought actually scares you that means you are "what if " thinking. I know I would never do anything to harm anyone but the idea that someone could really upsets me. I am 32 and have been married for 4 years..all of my friends are having children and I really feel pressure..I heard that along with fertility treatments you should take accupunture?? Also..does anyone ever get the feeling that they need to leave a room when they are in a meeting and just have that "get out" feeling?? I get that sometimes and I hope that tomorrow I can really pay attention to the Dr. and not get that feeling....please wish me luck and I am praying that we all come back here are write that we are expecting little miracles...God Bless You All

When you said "Wow. I'm sad to say that I'm actually glad to see I am not the only one dealing with both of these things at the same time. It truly is awful." I really felt compelled to post instead of just lurk. I feel the exact same way. My husband often points out that he has no idea what I'm going through, which never really helps. I wish he would sometimes just pretend, it makes me feel very alone.
I have a five year old and have struggled to get pregnant again for the last 4 years. We went ahead and registered with an adoption agency this last year but I'm not giving up on a biological child yet. I guess whatever God makes happen first is the way it's supposed to be.
I truly am terrified of the procedures you've described so it's very encouraging to hear that despite your anxiety and fears you're battling through them and continuing on. If you can maybe I can too.
Keep your chin up, God really does have a plan for each of us.

Thanks so much for all the input guys. It's comforting to know I am not alone. I felt like I was the only person in the world dealing with both of these problems, which can play havoc with your emotions and well-being.

I start my injections for IVF tomorrow. I'm currently not panicking too much, and hoping I won't be. {although the klonopin does help, and I was also put back on Zoloft}

Harlow - I posted earlier - but yes I am now 6 weeks pregnant following IVF. I take Citalopram (not sure what the brand name is in USA) - it doesn't stop the panic attacks though. I also have Klonopin. Any psychiatrist says to keep taking the meds. I"ve never met anyone who says to come off meds when pregnant at any stage.
Anyway - I am borderline agoraphobic and don't know how I'm going to cope with being pg.
Love Mumpy

Hi again Rowan,
Last pg - I saw a top psychiatrist in Boston - and she had no problem with me taking maximum dosage of Zoloft and also taking up to 3mg of Klonopin a day. Do not stop taking the meds after 8 weeks - it's a big mistake (I say this from my own experience).
In short - I have panic attacks and anxiety all the time - and I successfully did IVF and got pregnant (and that was with citalopram and klonopin). I am now 6 weeks pregnant.