I lost my husband 9 months ago and I have a little 2 year old and I alway worry about waht he really is felling or thinking?

I lost my dad when I was 10. At 2 your son probably wonders where his daddy is? Why he's not around. I dodn't know about emotionally that's kind of young to think they really understand that kind of loss. But I do think it's important for you to keep anything that will let your son understand or know who his dad was when he gets older. The hardest part of loosing a parent when your young is not knowing who they was. What kind of person he was what did he like to do . Your son will want to know. I always wonder things about my dad this I think is the hardest part . I am a part of someone I don't even know. And when I'm with my dads parents I wonder if they think diffrent of me because my dads not here. I hope this kind of helps.

I am so very sorry for your loss. Your two year old I'm sure wonders where his dad is, but him being so young he has not formed memories of his dad. Memories form at five years of age for children.
I'm sure you are talking with him.
How are you doing? I hope you have someone to talk with yourself.
I will remember you and your son in my prayers.
All my best to you.

Dream Big,
I am so very sorry about your loss. My sister lost her husband about six months ago and also has a two year old. I know my sister has collected specific memories to share in the future. I agree with what the others have said about your toddler possibly being too young to understand. He may sense something has changed or that you are upset. I know how hard it has been for my sister and will definitely pray for you and your son.

I hope you do not mind me adding my two cents
My Father died when I was six months old. So, I remember nothing. For me, it really didn't seem like anything was wrong. I had two older brothers who broke many of my bones throughout the years

There was one problem. When I recognized other children had fathers I would ask my Mom about my Dad. It would make her cry and get upset. So, I learned never to ask because it brought her pain. To this day it is a topic I do not touch.

As far as advice, talk about to your son. Let him know what he was like, what he enjoyed, pictures, etc. It will be more healthy for him in the long run!

May God fill your void...Steve

Losing someone you love is never easy. My dad passed when I was 28. I think everyday how hard it must be for my mother. She says she looks at old couples and wishes that was her and my dad. But she knows it will never be. Each person handles pain and sadness differently. But just try to remember you and your child have an angel watching over you all the time. You will find peace in time. God bless you.

Dear Dream: All I can say is that I am very sorry and that although I don't know you I will pray for you and your son. The mere fact that you wrote this tells me that you have in you what your son will and does need. He is lucky to have a thoughtful,sensitive, and loving mother. I will keep you both in my thoughts. Take extra good care and be healthy.(Location:San Francisco Bay Area)

I'm sorry to read about your loss, but I can tell you from expirence , the older they are the more they remember about their dad. I was two years old when my dad committed *******. I have no memory of him at all, but my three older brothers do .It was hard to grow up without a fathers' discipline and direction, but it IS survivable! One more thing I want to pass along to you is @ Rev. 21:4, what else is there?