I haven't posted in a while but I really could use some sound words from everyone out there. I'm in week 12 of the program and I'm stalled. It's not the lesson - I do know what I'm getting out of this condition - excuses. When I don't want to do something - I use my anxiety as an excuse. I feel I really am getting better about it and just facing the issue at hand.

Right now I feel like the whole world is against me. I know that this is victim feeling and I need to get over it but I've just hit a rough patch. I'm not happy with my job and I really want to find something else before the end of the summer. I'm looking and submitting resumes but nothing is really hitting me. I've also been toying with starting my own business and finacially, I could probably stand it but I just can't figure out what to do.

My husband and I are coming up on our first anniversary this weekend. The first half of the year was great - the second half - not so much. We are dealing with issues with his parents. They have a certain amount of control over my husband and he just doesn't seem to be able to let it go. We have been arguing about it a lot. I don't think our marriage is in jeopardy but I do think this issue needs to be resolved - I just go round and round with him on it. We never resolve anything. I've been assertive. I've been kind and compassionate, but nothing works. It seems to go in one ear and out the other. I also want to start trying for a baby but I'm not so sure I should until he can prioritize a bit better and put his parents in their place.

I'm just such a mess right now. I feel like I'm slipping back into the depression mode. My husband and I are going away next week and I'm hoping I can just relax and chill out but right now, I just want and do cry all the time.

Any advice is appreciated.

GoodDayCt,

You need to give yourself a break. You just completed 12 weeks and are probably doing better than you're giving yourself credit for. Developing new positive ways of thinking isn't easy. It truly is two steps forward, one step back. Try under reacting to your current situation. It will pass. As fare as your husband and his overbearing parents...age old problem. Sometimes, as hard as it is, you may have to let it go if he refuses to change. You can only let him know how it affects you, but you can't expect him to change immediately. Try making a joke out of it with yourself. That usually seems to work when I find myself getting annoyed by the out-laws. Hope this helped. Keep smilin'.