Hi Nurny or Victoria: Wow when I read your letter I was very touched because it sounds very similar to me in a lot of ways. I also was going to write help so I immediately went to this forum. I am in hard setback. I have been in them before so I feel I can get out of it. I am not able to do a lot of things right now which I think is making it worse. I have been obsessing my condition lately. I hate that!!! I am trying to distract myself from obsessing but it is very hard. What can you do to get over the hopelessness feeling???? Any suggestions. Love Mo.