This is my third day on this program. I love the relaxation tape although I must admit, doing the breathing makes me a little anxious. My husband, two year old, and I have listened to it the last two nights before bed and plan to keep listening to it. My daughter calls it her bedtime story and she even relaxes. A big feat for a two year old. It was also nice to hear on the tape that I was not alone in all my thoughts. I look forward to learning more and becoming to person I know I was born to be.

Me too. I want a better life. I just have to keep going and finish the program. I'm on day one. ttl

hello my name is lisa and this is my first day as well..i am going to give this program my all because i am living my life everyday with anxiety that i cannot exactly pinpoint. I want to enjoy my life and be able to relax the way my family memebers and friends do. I no longer what to be a victim of anxiety! I truly believe this program came to me as a blessing.

This is day 4 for me. I did the program about 10 years ago and it worked for me. I have had a relapse the past year or so. I thought it was just stress but the anxiety attacks were getting worse. I am doing this to myself. I know that. Now I need to undo mhy negative thinking. I am in sales so I am in the car a lot. I find the CD's very helpful.

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I haven't heard the relaxing cd yet but I plan to listen to it tonight. I am on day 1 just heard the jump start and session 1 so far. Honestly I thought all the symtoms I heard on the cd's were a normal way of my life. The Dr.s told me I was getting older and should expect changes. I thought I really was crazy and had better do my best not to show it. If anyone found out, I was afraid I would be put on heavy medicine or something, but I knew I wasn't going to hurt anyone so I just decided to deal with it by myself, Quietly.
When I was 28 I put a shot gun barrel in my mouth for practice to make sure it would work, and That was the day I got a better understanding of God and what faith really is. Crazy or not, I promise you I heard the words " do you really want to leave me forever, I'm still here." I am not making this up and I have told very few people about this. But at that moment I knew I wouldn't be going there,or doing that, Ever. I would just have to get through it.And spent the better part of 16 years in a fuzzy kind fog.Forgetting simple things finding the milk in the cabbinett and the peanut butter inthe frig. Going into rooms to do something and not knowing what it was when I got there.I stayed grouchy alot.
It is real nice to find out there is help without an instant pill as the only answer. I tried those they put me to sleep for about a week, waking up only for body functions. The whorst part is I know I passed this on to my kids. And until now have been very little help to them in thier struggle with depression.But now I am going to get better now that I finally found some help, for myself and them.And plan to take full advantage of all the help I can get,even from me. To all of you, I hope you get all the good help you can, this program so far seems helpful.And I look forward to our healing, and learning together, I wish you all the best.

Day 2 for me. The relaxation tape is wonderful.

I need to work through my depression and am going to see the pschiatgrist on Wednesday. Stopping taking meds about 5 month ago - and here I am now. I can't stress enough that if you're taking meds - only go off them under a doctors supervision.

I think it helps to talk about our issues here.

I am on day 3, I feel edgy and so therefor I curtailed my social activities to keep in control. I have listened to the relaxation tape each day. Am not doing too good about listeneing more than once as my schedule is not refined. I am determined to beat the depression and anxiety, so am working as diligently as I can.

Hey friends, i will be going through the program with you. I went through it a few years ago and it helped me alot. In Feb of this year i had a major relapse and the attacks came back even worse than before. I had to quit my postal job and now i have so many phobias its crazy. I am depressed and tired of this crap. Its like a demon is in my head or something. I cant even go into buildings now and its difficult to be in my house sometimes and around my wife. Its like i just want to be by myself. Being around people make me anxious, which is funny since i was a window clerk before. I need and am going to make major lifestlye changes. I am not living like this anymore--period. My name is Keith and i live in wv. Right now im taking this opertunity to go after a dream of mine and try to make it as an artist. I have been painting full time downstairs in my house. I have a show in jan. My website is www.keithjohnsontheartist.com if you wanna check it out. peace.

I have alot in common with most of you, I too quit my meds 5 months ago, they where taking a toll on my physical health, (the Dr had me taking 3 times the max dose recommended by the manufacture, he said it was ok, it was not).

I have also thought about suicide, but I would rather suffer for the next 50 years than spend eternity in the dark. I am on week 2 of the program, but today is my birthday, so today is the beginning of my new life. I know it won't be easy, but I can't live the way I have been. My wife moved out sunday, apparently she feels the same. It's ok, you can only be an %#$hole to someone for so long. Honestly, she was a saint to stay as long as she did. It occured to me, after she left, that I had been clinging to her, dragging her down. I've been drowning in my demons, and she was my life preserver, if you know anything about how a drowning person treats his resquer, you can see how bad it has been for her.

Now I need to learn to swim on my own. I've been changing everything, how I eat, my schedule, what I do with my free time, I've even been excersing more, I was very healthy and fit at one time, but i gave that up with all the other good things in my life. But I can change. I will change. I must. My wife may not come back, and if that is what is best for her, that is ok. I have alot of social anxiety, too, so even this is difficult for me, but I think if we all stick together, we can lift each other and our selves up. I am tring to learn to surrender all of the negativity to God. Take in only good things, and I will become good.

There is a Native American legend that says mens' souls are made up of two wolves, one good and one evil, they fight to the death, the one that wins is the one you feed.

I am really having a hard time today. It is now day 5 for me and yesterday my grandmother, who is more like a mother to me, had a heart attack. She is stable in the hospital but we are unsure to what is instore to her and for us. She has always been there for me. She is one of my best friends. It has really been hard for me. I have tried to keep busy by cleaning and focusing on the good but it is really hard. I have had to resort to taking my ativan 2 times today and I was just starting to get away from it. I just needed to share what I feel. Thank you all for being here so that I can do this.

You can do it Aly's Mom! I won't speak on grief since I haven't been there but just take one day, or one hour, or one minute at a time.

AFM - Am I the only one having anxiety just posting here? I've gotten burned on forums before and there was such encouragement on the tapes to just post here so I thought, okay, a supportive environment where nobody bashes on each other, maybe I could become an active member this time instead of lurking. Working to get out of my shell!

Wow, that is wonderful your daughter listens to it. I wish I could bet my 2 year old son to do that. That is great that you are already teaching her to relax. What a great skill she will learn with you!

Day 3 for me. I wake at night and have panic attacks. Can't wait for day light. Wonder if it will come or not. Hope this helps me cope and get back my life!!!

Hi I am Mr. "E" I have just started the program. I want to end my anxiety attacks that is why I so happy to be going on this journey with somany new members!

Hi you all. It's day five in session 1 for me. I want to go to the second session but I'm having a hard time in finding my personality traits that enccurage anxiety. How are you all doing? I hope well. I gess I have noticed that I tend to think about doing something for to long before I get started. Then I get frustrated because I don't get the work done as fast as I want to. (I do dirt work and concrete contracting.)Thats fun. I'd like to hear how you all are doing with sessin 1. maybe it will key some more stuff for me that I can relate to.
I hav'nt had a panic attack in ten years but sometimes get vertigo when driving that causes anxiety. I don't like to drive alone far from home because I get that funny feeling of not being in reality. (alone anxity maybe) I still don't know to describe it. The only hope I've had of being rid of it is this program. I have never told my wife how bad it can really be. (I gess I don't her to think I'm weak.) It shure is limiting and I'm tired of it. Does anyone know if there is study groups to work in a class setting? Well more later, thank you.