Hello! I have just started this program a few weeks ago. Is there anyone who has dealt with an eating disorder and if so, do you believe it has had a great impact on your current condition (anxiety/ depression and of course OCD)? I have had an ED since I was 16 yrs old. It is not active currently. I believe what was a desire to be thin turned into a mental demon who would not leave me alone. Is there anyone who can relate?

I think everyone who battled their weight from a very early age (age 8 for me), has had a constant struggle. I believe you are right about the anxiety that it brings. It's because you are SO worried about being an acceptable weight, that eventually you are afraid of public situations where you may be judged harshly and/or cruely. My feeling is that all my friends who have complete acceptence of themselves (irregardless of their weight) are just fine socially. They accept themselves and are not interested in other's "grade" of their looks. I'm trying to attain that genuine attitude. Keep working on it and good luck.

Thank You for the response! Yes it is true I am always afraid of people judging me. It is a constant burden having the feeling that all eyes are on me even though in reality I know that they are not. I never feel at ease in situations because I am afraid I will do/say something stupid or embarrass myself! I feel like an putz! I wish one day I could just be happy with myself. It's obsessive- I'm a counter also.. 123456789.......

i too just started the program.
i suffered from anorexia from age 12-14. im 17 now and have been bulimic for quite some time.
the first time i made myself vomit was the 5th grade. i know what you mean by the mental demon.
oh in every way.
7 years is a long time to do this to myself..i've been in therapy aiming towards recovery since age 15. i dropped to 87 pounds and they took me to the hospital.
then everyone thought i was better.
hmmmm...the things your parents don't know when they don't look at the insurance report.
im getting WAYYYYY better though.
which makes me happy
i could go far into this, perhaps i've gone to far already.
anyways, i certainly believe it has an impact.
eating disorders are an obsession, a constant anxiety that only depresses you...yet also you need it to get out of depression.
anyways,
.natasha.katrina.