Hello Everyone! I cannot seem to shake these blasphemous thoughts to God, it makes we crazy!! I pray and pray constantly for Him to take them away or just give me strength to accept them as not my own. But I tell you, it's debilitating my life. I can't smile or laugh anymore when hearing "F - - -" you, God." in my head all day. Why is this happening? I am a good person and go to church begging for grace and courage. Please, can someone offer any advice? I'm on Lexapro 30mg and take Ativan twice a day, but the thoughts still do not stop. I love God with all my heart and I know He doesn’t care but it feels so real to me, like I'm damned for life!!! Please, help, I'm so scared!!!! I pray for you all, we will overcome!

Worrywoman: I have all of the same horrible thoughts that you have. I just try (and it is not easy) to tell myself that God loves me no matter what! If we believe that (again this is not easy) than a lot of these thoughts will ease up. I think our minds have these thoughts because we are so worried of falling from his grace, which is impossible to do.

I had thoughts like that and finally one day it dawned on me I was not thinking these thoughts..Kind of like panic when I understood they no longer could hurt me

I've had a lot of these thoughts too.

They don't have much power over me anymore. At first I prayed a lot for forgiveness. After awhile I realized God knows me. I don't have to explain. If I didn't care about God, the thoughts would not scare me. So my old reaction was enough to tell me that I really cared a great deal.

Now I've come to the point where I just kind of shrug my shoulders. Oh well, another one of those scary obsessive thoughts, I'm not going to give it any worth or power. So after awhile, you DO stop being afraid of them. And it doesn't mean you no longer care about God. It means you worked through the scary thought, and you took away any power it had over you.

Guys, thanks so much for responding! It's nice to know that I'm not the only one who suffers with this. Isn't so freaky how our minds scare us this way? Why God though? I have no anger or resentment towards Him whatsoever. Why does this happen?

My cursing to God seems to be getting worse and I feel so unworthy in this life!! I love God more than anything and constantly pray to Him and Jesus to take these thoughts away from me. This is gettiing out of hand to the point where it scares me to pray because I hear the scary thoughts rambling in my head. How do I handle this? Please, someone help, I'm going insane!!!!

First of all worrywoman your not going insane! I can't say that this is normal, but who is to say what normal is. I've had these thoughts myself for the past 4-5 years. I can't know what's maybe happened in your life to make you feel this, but I know in my own situation I went through some major loss's in my life and had to deal with these mostly on my own. I got to the point of saying to God "you've taken so much from me why don't you just take me and get it over with". And even with all this I do still have belief. Maybe not as much faith as before. And to cope with this I just remind myself that there's some good reason why I'm still here, and that I must be doing good for something or somebody. And I find my peace in that. But because of this I'm studing the Bible and Bible history more than ever. And I do have a much deeper interest in it than ever before. Maybe not so much in the faith part of it, but to see if I can find some answers to the questions that have been so long unanswered. Worry woman I feel if you just believe in your own strengths (and I know you have them or you wouldn't be here now) you'll find the release from this that your looking for. The answer is in you....OK
Best wishes,
James

You are not going insane. I know you probably don't believe me, but I know exactly how you feel. I still get those thoughts, but they don't have as much power over me as they used to, because I came to realize that God made me (and my mind) and loves me NO MATTER WHAT!! Nothing you can do could ever change that.

When you/I (and everyone for that matter) realizes that we can't fall from the grace of God, then those thoughts won't have power over you and will start to diminish.

When Jesus said "IT IS FINISHED", he meant it. He didn't say it is going to be finished if ... IT IS FINISHED!

I have the same problem. These thoughts bring guilt, fear of hell, of loosing one's mind, but the truth is - God knows it's not you, just your disorder. He won't blame you for being sick.

In my case my therapist found the basics of what was causing these thoughts. My history with my father, became a thing for which the mask of God was created for. Maybe you just need to find what my be causing your problems.

I'm not a doctor and maybe this isn't the best course for you, but maybe it'll help you to read it.

Best wishes,

maryjanemay

trust me it's the devil....i'm not saying this in a way like "the devils at ur side" so dont be scared but satan puts thoughts in our head that he KNOWS bother us and make us feel unworthy...thats something satan loves he wants to make you feel hopeless and unloved by God...we have a body mind soul and spirit...body meaning your physical, mind meaning your experiences in life, soul is who you are and spirit being Holy Spirit if you are christian. All these can affect your anxiety in a different way. I would look into books by Dr Grant Mullen i'm suppose to start seeing him he specializes in mood disorders like anxiety and depression but he's Christian. He's located in burlington ontario. He says when it comes to the spirit the spirit of God doesnt give us fear but satan can lie to our spirits too and this Doctor knows that too so hopefully i'll get to see him before I move back to my home province in april.

worrywoman,

I had the exact same thing you do, though mine had some extra components that I won't bother telling you about. If you are anything like me, hearing what I did will make you worry that you will do it and then, of course, you will.

First off, let me assure you 100% that God loves you and he knows you love him. He knows that these thoughts are not something you mean but are something you're having a hard time controlling. For me, it got to the point that I couldn't pay attention in class or ever enjoy anything because the blasphemous thoughts were always running through my mind.

I was finally able to get them to decrease, though the thoughts have not gone away completely, even now, 4 years later. What I did was tell myself that since God knows and I know that these thoughts are not true and not actually my faul, it DOESN'T MATTER IF THEY GO THROUGH MY MIND. The only way to make them go away is to no longer care if they come.

So, how can you go from loving God so much and really not wanting to think like that to not caring if you do? Realize that you still love God, but that these thoughts are just OCD, or obsessive thoughts. They aren't hurting God and they aren't counting against you. If they come to mind, oh well. It's no big deal (even though it may feel like a big deal now.)

It'll take a little time to get used to not caring, and it'll take time to learn to not respond in that panicky way. Having these thoughts is probably very draining for you, both emotionally and spiritually. Heck, it even drained me physically. But THEY DON'T MATTER. And you're not lying to yourself when you say it - they really do not matter.

Oh, and try not to worry about asking for forgiveness every time one of these thoughts pops in your mind. At the beginning or end of the day, you can do one big "I'm sorry for those crazy thoughts, God" if you like. Also, it was very helpful for me to tell lots of people about my problem (not in graphic detail, but you get the idea.) Once I saw that they weren't affected by it that much, it became easier to live with. And now I even laugh about it!

You can too! Good luck and I prayed for you. God loves you no matter what and where ever you are in your walk with him.

~gwoman

Thanks everyone for your responses, it makes me feel better knowing I'm not alone. Gwoman, you're right about telling others about these thoughts and they're reactions to them. They are not even bothered by them, and even laugh. I need to react in a similar fashion in order to diminish the panic when hearing them. You are all blessings from God in responding, thanks and I will pary for you too!

Dear Worrywomen, I also believe that it is the devil that is causing these problems. I also know that he brings his biggest attacks against you when you are about to have a great break through. I myself am going through awful thoughts right now. Sometimes I feel like I have greatly failed God. Even though I have great turmoil in my life (or as I think it is) I still have to listen to that one small voice that always is the Holy Spirit that tells me that He (God) will not leave me or forsake me. I hold on to that and I believe that.

Kristin: Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I am having kind of a tough time with things and your insights have helped

here's an example of the devil and me..sometimes when your fighting to get your life back together he'll throw things that upset you in your face even off the television. I PROMISE YOU...i was terrfied i was going to wake up sick today for a few different reasons...and i woke up fine but last night i saw two shows in a row that mentioned nausea and vomiting and even today when i was feeling ok i put on the same show..SEINFELD...and they mentioned vomiting again. First thing my husband said "thats the devil trying to bug you" and believe me...i believe it because i really dont consider that stuff coincidence anymore.