This program was on PBS last night and was all about OCD. I learned that the negative thinking that goes with Anxiety starts with OCD and that the OCD gives us those negative thoughts....It was quite interesting, but I was watching in between commercials of another show.

I can't believe the irrational thoughts that we have and believe. One woman was babysitting her nephew when she was 13 yrs old, he was sleeping and she was just sitting in a chair and she had VIVID thoughts and could actually see herself stabbing him to death...and throughout her life, every person that she loved, she would have this same image in her head. How do we get rid of this? Where does it come from?

I didn't think I had OCD very badly, but after watching this, I understand that's where my negative thoughts and images come from, obsessive thinking......

I am the King of negative thinking.
for years I would actually look for time to spare for my negative thinking. My thought used to be about planning my own funeral. In my head I always wanted to die young,simply because I was vane and did not want people to see me old and wrinkly. I would think about the people at my funeral and the comments they would make. Who liked me and who didn't CRAZY ISNT IT I was so busy dying that I totally forgot about living. I've lost three of my sibblings to AIDS and recently my negative thought has been everytime I get a body symptom is that I have it too. I have been around so many people with AIDS and I've been to too many funerals No wonder I think this way. But I have learned to stop myself when the thought about Aids comes into my head I simply have to tell myself that I am not sick and that I 'm not going to feed it anymore. It is getting better. I do find it amazing because I never think that way Until I have a body symptom and then boom I've got every illness known to man. feeling for lumps and bumbs I even look in the mirror everyday just to see if I look healthy. well that has to stop because I need to stop thinking that there always has to be something wrong with me in order for me to live. I HAVE STOPPED DYING AND NOW I AM FOCUSING ON LIVING I'LL FOCUS ON DYING WHEN THE TIME COMES UNTIL THEN THE SUN WILL RISE AND I WANT TO ENJOY IT ALL. IF WE DIDN'T HAVE A PROBLEM WITH NEGATIVE THINKING WE WOULDN'T BE ANXIOUS
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Ya know max....I have been to so many funerals, I can't even count anymore. At least half of them were for VERY young people who were killed in car accidents. This started when I was 10...it's no wonder I have so many negative thoughts running my brain. It seems the more people that are killed the worse my anxiety gets. Thank you for pointing that very obvious reason for my anxiety out to me. I think about these people quite often and still cry for some of them. No wonder I'm so negative..... =(