This forum is so amazing. I went through the HIV fear about 15 years ago after my divorce. When I met my husband, I was still going through it. I had them finally check me when I got pregnant with our first son. I was sooo scared! But it turned out all right. I still get worried about even now. Strange isn't it? I think it has to do with control and that I should've been able to control the "danger" I put myself in while being single.

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The control thing and the fact that i NEVER knew what he was going to say to me scared me!!!! Im so glad Im rid of him!!!

Hi thanks for getting back to me sorry it is taken me so long to get back, I am trying to work 2 jobs, AHHHH. Please email me anytime, I would love to chat with you. Maybe I could call you and we could talk too. Thanks. I feel so bad inside. I have so much to talk about.

Im angry!!!! I was out last night having a great time with my friends...and some drunk guy randomly comes up to us and starts talking about HIV to us! what the hell!!!! Its like he knew it was my fear, but I think I was being tested by God. I got a little angry and defensive and my friend was trying to get him to go away (she knows about my hiv fear) He was saying that today isnt like the 60's and u can get anything by having sex just once bla bla bla....I was thinking, ok why is he doing this and what the hell is wrong with this asshole?!!!! WHATEVER...well needless to say, he set me back a little today. UGH!