I've had obsessive thoughts about sexual, racism, and insulting people, intrusive thoughts

I've never had these thoughts before. When around people the thoughts almost "shout out" (like tourettes) but there are all in my head. I know for a FACT that they know, simply because of what they say, or refer to something about what I was paying attention to/ or thinking about

I've never been good at dealing with people. I thought I had friends but I was simply too dumb to realize that I was just a joke to them (8 years of this)

At work the people really just focus on me. That is all they seem to do (I found that they only do this when I'm anxious)
Also what ever I focus on they notice without a doubt, and they point it out, Is this part of normal communication? are they trying to get me "back into reality" (restoring the communication lines so to speak)

example: KFC, I took some trash out, and I'm listening to the order and chris "catches me listening to him" and says "sorry the button was stuck" (to the customer)and I was awestruck at his ability to detect me listening..would this be normal? could something like this happen?

also i tend to echo what people say around me in my head, I know I they know that i'm doing it, how? well I got the word echo from the person who caught me "repeating what they are saying in my head in a looping fashion"

also I am having aaalot of sexual stimulation in my groin, and sometimes it is logical, and most of the time it isn't...and I know for a fact people can see it when it happens (stimulation)

people also know what I'm listening to (attention) and "they show me that they know I am paying attention to it"
basically am I missing important parts of communication? (hmm I am very forgetful too as you can probably can tell)

Hi Thrandioso - sorry you are having so much trouble, it must be very difficult for you, and you can manage this, the "external noise" from others, etc. I think it's like you think they are targeting you, as if expecting some reaction from you, so you do the "self-fulfilling prophecy" thing, doubting yourself and think the pressure is going to cause you to blurt out. You can get control of this, just do your own work focusing on the program, etc. and don't get distracted by those other people. They don't matter, you're more important than what they might or might not be doing or thinking of you. Don't go looking for validation there, nor go looking for something you may be doing wrong that they don't approve of. It doesn't matter.

thanks, you are right..
thats been a problem i've had my whole life to come to think of it