i dont even know where to begin....i have had this disorder for about 6 years now...there have been really good times and really really bad ones. Right now i feel so wierd like i am crazy or going crazy or something...sort of like derealization...but i just have no feelings...my biggest fear does not even really make sense when you say it outloud...kind of like i am afraid i am split personality it doesnt make sense and i just try to not let it bother me....but then i just have this feeling of blah like i am just there....not really enjoying life...i have been really bad before and got out of it....but now i just dont know where to start i guess some medicine to help me get out of this cycle but i am always afraid it wont help or it will make me worse...i wish i could explain my thoughts inside...but i cant....like i used to think aboiut things and get anxiety attacks but now it is just thoughts and i dont let them bother me i gus it is just a feeling of over all wierdness....alot of it i am sure is due to guilt and fear....i keep making bad decisions...even though i know i should not cuz God ask for more than that....i dont know...any advice anyone?

What thoughts are you having? I have Pure O and my OCD is getting better. Let me know and I will tell you what I have done to releive some of the pain. God Bless <3

First....breathe, everything is going to be ok. Talk to yourself, tell yourself its just anxiety and you'll be fine. Its not going to hurt you. You've been here before and if you came out of it once, you can do it again. You are a strong and smart individual and you can do this. When the derealization comes don't fight it, let it come. It will go away as fast as it came just don't fight it. Let your self feel the anxiety, you have nothing to fear. Have you tried any natural remedies. I'd try those before prescription meds. Benzo's and antidepressants can be addictive. Hang in there, everything will be fine.

Hi, I am new to this site and don't usually post, but what you said caught my attention. I also sometimes feel like that even when its not my thoughts causing the anxiety. I spend so much energy and time fighting off the anxiety and obsessions that I think I just feel "tired" of it all and feel disconnected and wierd. The good news is that it does pass you just have to refocus on something else other than the feelings your having. I know that is way easier said than done but I hope you feel better soon.

thank you guys for taking the time to reply as the day has been progressing i have been feeling alittle better....i started ouit by saying out loud a phrase...just reminding myself some things....then i just stared trying to focus on other things....i wish i could tell you the exact thoughts but i cant pinpoint them...i remember one day i had a thought what if i forget what i look like....and then after that came a thought what if i forget who i am on the inside...wierd thought i know but it scared me...and its not really a clear thought it is just a fear feeling i guess...like i said though alot of my anxiety probably comes from the fact that i feel i have let God down and do it again evryday and have no intentions of changing even though i should...the issue really is that i am gay...and a christian and can not give up one or the other and it puts me in this depressive anxious spiral.....thats alittle more detail ad again thanks for the replies have a good day...

I had the SAME thing. Mine was real bad and I will not share because I feel you don't need more things to think about. The whole "Who Am I" deal scared the crap out of me and let me tell you, I almost checked myself in to a hospital. I am doing so much better now and I feel okay. It does take some time. Hang in there!

lilaclady.....i would like to know what you did...i remember at one point in my life i had a huge overcome with it by just refusing to think bad thoughts but now it is hard to do that...any advice did you take medicine i feel i am at the point to where i need to take medicine again...any advice would help also if you dont mind me asking what is your faith?

Hey all, if you read my post "can anyone realate to this" you will see I had the same thoughts! I feel so much better reading that you have shared some of the same ones! I read about those who get the violent thoughts, but mine seem to center around my idendtity. Anything that would steal me of "who I am" is what I obsess about! I had the one too... "What if I forget what I look like"...or "What if my kids aren't my kids", "What if this lovely family and wonderful life God gave me is all just a dream, and I wake up some day!" Stupid thoughts! I know! But, why...why do they center around these types of things. You are not alone! None of us are alone! And if you believe like I do...God is always there!
God Bless,
Kelly