Andrew, tried replying to the original thread and my computer kept bombing out for some reason, so I am posting a response to your question under a new thread.

The song I have been "obsessed" with recently is Puddle of Mudd's song "Blurry".

(1st verse)

Everythings so blurry and everyone's so fake
Everybody's empty and everything is so messed up
Preoccupied withou you I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble and I crawl
And you could be my someone you can be my scene
You know that I'll protect you from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing, imagine where you are
There's ocean's in between us, but that's not very far

(chorus)
Can you take it all away? Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face - this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away? Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face - this pain you gave to me

(2nd verse)

Everyone is changing there's no one left that's real
Make up your own ending and let me know just how you feel
'Cause I am lost without you, I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you, I stumble then I crawl
And you could be my someone, you can be my scene
You know that I will save you from all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing - I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us, but that's not very far

(repeat chorus)

(3rd verse)

Nobody told me what you thought, nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn, showed you when to run away
Nobody showed you where to hide, Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn, showed you WHEN TO RUN AWAY

(repeat chorus)

I split up with a girlfriend over a year and a half ago. At the time, it seemed like the right move to make. For a time, even after we split up, we remained friends. I was there when she went through detox. As part of her rehabilitation, she had to attend group counseling meetings. On Friday nights, it was "Family night", and since she did not have any family in the area, she usually asked me to attend. I went not because I really wanted to, but out of concern for her.

Since then, she has been through a couple of relationships and I have been dumped again. It is particularly difficult, because I have to see her almost every day - we work together. (I know, don't get your honey where you make your money.)

Back in April, we started talking a little bit more and I started entertaining a thoughts that maybe we could get back together. Recently, she started dating a new guy and came over to tell me about him. It is obvious to me that she really likes this fella, which is what makes it difficult for me. I know she is gone.


I have pretty much suspended all conversation with her, except that which is necessary to conduct business. Maybe that is immature and sour grapes on my part. Basically, I have built a wall.

"Blurry" kind of sums up how I feel. On one hand, I miss her and want her to be happy. I wonder what she is doing a lot of the time; although, I do not ask her about how things are in her life. On the other hand, I am angry with her. The phrase, "There's ocean's in between us, but that's not very far." I kind of interpret figuratively. The "oceans" to me are symbolic of my inability or unwillingness to talk to her.