I have been sailing along great for the past few month,and when I say great I mean that my panic attacks are not a daily occurence like they were, but maybe one every week or two. In any event, things have been really stressful at work, people getting let go with budget cuts, and now I am worrying about getting let go also. Also, my grandmother passed away last November and with the one year mark approaching I am feeling very sad. My panic is back in full force and I have a lot of body symptoms again, such s stomach pain and upset, arm tingles, neck numbness, hip pain, the list goes on and on.... My concious mind knows I am experiencing panic and anxiety, but the old subconcious keeps telling me that I have something wrong with my stomach and that surely with all the numb and tingles, that there MUST be something else wrong, because no matter how much I breathe deep, it won't go away.

Thanks for listening and any comments would be appreciated.
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Hi

Just remeber that these feelings will pass sometimes it feels like hours instead of minutes but know it will get better. Have faith. Remember you are not alone. God bless

I know how you feel to feel so good for a period of time and then all of a sudden you have a bad day and then it turns into more bad days of anxiety and panic attacks. First of all, you have reason to feel normal anxiety, the possibility of losing your job is a stressful thing to deal with. Give yourself permission to be upset about it, but also you have to think positive and say positive things to yourself so that you don't get stuck in the negative. I am learning to journal alot more than I used too, and I am shocked at when I write my fears down which most are irrational but some a valid, then read it again and then write a positive new way of handling that fear or thought I do start to not only feel better but believe what I wrote.
You are not relapsing, my worst fear is that I would start to not have anxiety anymore and then all of a sudden it would strike me again and I would be worst than before. It sounds like you know alot of the tools to free yourself and manage your anxiety, you felt much better for several months, so you need to give yourself credit for that. It is easier to feel like a failure than to pat yourself on the back, but you have to say good things to yourself at all times.
I have alot of the same symptoms you have when I have anxiety, and the worst is the numbness. I have noticed if I really concentrate on slowing down my breathing, it helps that feeling go away or distract myself with something I enjoy doing.
Keep your head up, allow yourself to be sad about your job and your grandfather but then remind yourself of how far you have come and truly be proud of yourself. You are not having a set-back just a little hiccup, I have them alot, I will go 2 weeks feeling great and then have a panic attack just going to drop my daughter off at school! those hiccups remind me to be better to myself and have less expectations but I am human and I am doing to have bad moments, but they will pass.
If you are not journaling, start, if you are journaling, start journaling more!! You will rid yourself of the stuff in your head. You will feel better soon.