I havent been doing much with the sessions. So today I started in again with week 10. This is so crazy I have had scary thoughts forever. I never said much to anyone about them (didnt want to seem crazy)I have told my husband a few things. There are so many. The biggest one for me is that my husband or two boys will die. Even typing it makes me shake. I know its all apart of life that some day they will be gone. Just dont want to think it everyday and every night.I had my first thought about my mother would die. when I was 4th or 5th grade. She did die of cancer when I was in my early 20's I have always thought if I think it,it will happen. I know it isnt true. Im not sure what it is that keeps me doing it. I feel if I dont do something for someone something bad could happen to them and I would feel bad I didnt. I dont want to have regets about anything or anyone. If you dont (somehow you will be punished for it) my father has a very bad heart and has had for 20 years or more. he just found out he has cancer. Im so afraid that I wont have done something or said something to him and he will die.I have to know in my heart I am doing what I can. And its the best I cant do I no its going to happen and I cant stop it. So here it is and Im leaving it here. Not in my head any longer. Life is what it is and I cant stop it. Just roll with it. I get to the other scary thoughts tomarrow! lol

I want to encourage you to begin with Session One, and really do what the program instructs you to do each day. Each session is a building block, a piece of your journey's path, toward the next session. If you jump around and skip sessions, you will never get the full benefit of this program. It really, truly works. But it works if you follow it as it has been so carefully designed. I wish you the best.

I have been doing them just took a few days off before starting the next week. I havent been jumping around.

wina,
Good for you. Keep moving forward.
As for your scary thoughts, this type of scary thought is very common. Our minds brew up the worst thing we can think of and then we dwell on it, over and over.
This will end after a while. You'll get there.
In the future one may pop in there now and then, but you'll know how to handle it and put up that stop sign and move on comfortably.
Hugs.

Sessions 8, 9, & 10 resonate me with so well. I have been obsessing my whole life. Who knew it was all about avoiding the emotional pain I feel. I just thought I was being creative.

This has been such an incredible journey, but sometimes I don't feel I am doing enough. And that goes back to the negative thinking session. I may need to go back over the program when I am finished. It is so powerful and I want this to work so badly.

I can really see how each session builds on the next. Also it's unbelievable how other things in my life seem to parallel what's happening in each session. Kind of like a confirmation. So I'm taking each day at a time and try to put off worrying about things I have no control over. That has helped tremendously with my anxiety and depression.