Hello to all, I go through spurts on posting, I mostly just read. I will say I purchased the program and I'm on lesson 2. I also started taking St John's Wort about a month ago.

the Topic:
I don't know about any of you, but for Me, I've always considered anxiety and panic disorder a Curse. I've been angry over getting it and it changing Me and in my opinion not for the better. I was never a worrier or afraid of things until I experience panic attacks.

So for the past 4 years I've been dealing with this condition and trying to settle down about it. IF I could find the answer (I'm not sure what the question) I would be OVER it. Whew glad that's done let's get on with life now. Well I'm not so sure it's so neat and tidy like that. I don't know about any of you, but I would LOVE it to be just that EASY.

I had an interesting dream the other night that I'm still mulling over. In my dream I was comforting my Grandmother (who is deceased). My Grandmother was having anxiety over and over and pacing back and forth. I went to her, hugged her tight and rocked her back and forth just soothing her(like a you would a child). Then it was like >>>>>>>>>>>WHAM>>>>>>> a voice that came to me as a thought (really hard to explain this) said "YOUR GIFT". I then woke up..........

I've sense pondered this dream some. I have always thought I was cursed by devloping this condition, like I wasn't strong enough or to fiesty or a worrier, etc. all negative thoughts. Maybe this is a gift. I am more compassionate now. I understand when a person is stressed and emotionally upset how they feel. I know the right things to say to calm them down. I did this calming technique with my dad before he went for open heart surgery. Kind of like I've been there I know what your going through.

Anyhow...just a post

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HI! I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE SAYING AND I FEEL THE SAME WAY. WHAT A GREAT POST! LC

Hi Soccermom!
What an awesome post! Anxiety really is a gift. Just like you said, you are more compassionate now and know how to calm others down. Before anxiety, I was short-tempered and couldn't understand how anyone could be so emotionally vulnerable as to have anxiety and depression. Well, the thing you don't understand and fear always seems to chase you down I have since realized that everyone, even the people I considered "strong", have anxiety and depression. Humility is also a gift.......Thanks for the post. And, what a meaningful dream!