Hello,

This is my second time making a post here. I am still waiting for the program to arrive. However, I am reading "From Panic To Power" in the meantime. I thought the feelings and thoughts that I had meant that I was suicidal and that I was capable of harming someone else but I realized that it was from my obsessive thoughts brought on by my anxiety. Have many of you ever had scary obsessive thoughts about suicide or harming someone? I'm afraid of death and hate how these thoughts seem to just take over so rapidly. I know that we are the creators of our thoughts and feelings, but I have yet to learn the skills to cope with them. I think I would feel better knowing that others have had the same if not similar experiences. Any replies would be greatly appreciated.

Don�t worry, your thoughts are quite common dealing with obsessions, it�s just our mind playing tricks, leave the thoughts that scare you aside and pick the nice ones to entertain you, i am happy you got the program, work with it, to educate yourself is the best weapon you can use to fight you anxiety/obsession...
Take care, you will get better...

Marco

Hi,
I tried to think back to how long I've suffered with anxiety/depression and I realised that I've had it almost all my life.
I remember being around 5 or 6 and helping my mother put together a desk and I had a morbid thought... I looked over at the screwdriver we were using and thought about using it to kill her.
Now, I knew I wouldn't go through with this. However, the fact that I was thinking so strangely scared me, especially at that age.
What's interesting is that I haven't had such thoughts for years, but I did at such a young age.
I guess my point is that, no, those obsessive, scary and sometimes downright bizarre thoughts are not a sign that you're crazy or such. It's far more common than you might think. And, apparently, these thoughts can occur in even the youngest of people. It's obviously common enough of an issue that it's addressed within the program.
- JS

Thank you for your responses. I guess I just need a little reassurance to remind myself that I'm not losing it after all. It just really sucks. Thanks for being understanding

Feelinglost

I am going through the same exact thing as you are right now..It sucks big time. You probably keep asking yourself, why am I thinking like this? What is wrong with me? Will I really do the things I am thinking about? What if I do? What will people think? and on and on and on..And b/c of this you can't even enjoy your day...Even though people say they have these thoughts you probably think you have it the worst..I am so scared of why I think like this. I as well, have had morbid thoughts when I was little too--but not as bad as now. I remember once I was camping and I was helping my mom and dad put up lights..I saw a knife and thought "What if I picked up the knife and stabbed myself"...What ten year old thinks like that??? Please email me if you would like..We could chat...