This is my third week into the program and I am feeling still a bit anxious and nervous. I have general anxiety, OCD and depression for the past 10 years now and I am 27 years old. I want so many things out of life but I live in fear about everything. I am struggling as right now I am living with my in-laws without my husband. My husband is a pilot and is currently living in CT and we see each other on the weekends only. We have two beagles that don't live with us either, because my father in law doesn't like dogs and we only see them once and a while. My uncle is dying of cancer and my family stresses me out all the time. My mom and dad and sister life in Florida. My mom is a shop-alcholic and spends money like it grows on trees, which my parents don't have. My dad is an alcholic and says verbal hurtful things. My sister is very angry with my parents and it is always my fault. The reason it is my fault is because I moved to Florida 5 years ago and my parents retired to Florida, against my moms will. My sister now lives in Florida for the last 1 1/2 because she hated where she lived prior to moving to Florida. On top of my family issues I am trying to relocate so my husband and I can be together again with our dogs. I am finding I delay in everything that needs to be done, because I fear failing and that then just causes more anxiety.

What else can I do when I don't have the support from my famiy and friends to encourage me to continue without being so afraid of the change, especially when I want the change to happen!?

I can't remember having (or needing) the support of my family to accomplish what I wanted to do. You need to live with your husband and your dogs. Your dogs need you and miss you. You don't need to put up with your father verbally abusing you. Don't let your family abuse you, that is what the dial tone on the phone is for. If they get abusive, hang up. You have the right to take care of yourself. I would have never gotten to where I am if I depended on getting the approval of others. Make your decision, follow up and make it work. Failure is not an option. Get on the internet and look for a new home. You can do it.

I agree with stock lady. You can do it. figure out what you want do to and do it. I would rather live in a 5 ft trailor with my dogs and husband than with out either. and i have with 3 kids. set you mind to it and you can do it. there is always options so think and decide. remember you cant please everyone so start with yourself then your husband and the hell with everyone else. when you are happy than you can make others happy and help them but not when you cant help yourself. so dig down deep and go for it dont think about failure think about sucess. you can do it and i wish you the best

Stock Lady and Vicki,
THANK YOU and your so right! I can do it! Now its to the pen and paperwork to figure out just what it is that I want! I wish both of you nothing but success and happiness in your life and future....and I know I am right behind!

this session was the one that started the healing for me. true i was so doubtful nothing could work. my husband ordered this program for me. i had no idea what so ever. when it came in the mail i cried. after i found out what it was i was astounded, and of course doubtful. after all the emotions were calm, i started the program. its is wonderful to know that i am not alone. i would reccomend this program to any and everyone! to know what was happening with my body physically and my mind mentally, to actually know this was astounding and very comforting. the best part as i said, I AM NOT ALONE. thank you lucinda, for me to look at life through a whole new set of "glasses" is awesome. also being able to help people that is just starting out, wow, words cant explain it. i learn from them and they learn from me. i call the chat room my second home now. i have met a lot of great people, my second family. thank you lucinda thank you. hard to say without crying. good tears though.

Hi Stephanie,
I am so glad to hear that things are doing well for you. I haven't been on in a few days as my uncle just passed away, so I've been preoccupied with family during this difficult time. I just started week 4 now and I can say that I am starting to see an improvement in certain situations, not all yet, but I know I have to be a little patient. My husband too ordered this program for me in hopes this would give me what I was looking for, which is how to cope with the everyday stresses. I was not getting that with therapy and I always felt that I was still struggling. I am finding however that my journaling is still struggling, see I think all the time but I get so busy at work being a bank manager that I don't have the luxury of writing things done as my day goes along. Any suggestions to help with my writers block? Hope to hear from you soon.

Sometimes before you go to bed just sit and let your pen roll over the paper once you are still you pen will do the talking. it sounds like it wouldn't work but when I was having issues it was the best therapy as you do not know what your subconsious is thinking. Give it a few times. Hope it works.