Since I started the program, just 3 days ago I've noticed since day 1 it seems that my fears are starting to broaden, due to what I'm hearing. I'm finding this incredibly frustrating!

I was never afraid of going out, as a matter a fact it was one of my "safe" zones. "As long as I'm out in public, and around ppl I'm distracted and okay". Well now due to what I'm listening to the "what if's" are having a hay day with me. "Well, what if your alone with the kids at the zoo & have a panic attack!" and of course, this completley freaks me out.

argh! This is so frustrating! I'm starting to feel like there are no safe spots, home alone, home with people, out alone, out with people. I seriously want to cry sometimes, and yet in that same note I am desperatley holding onto the positive by telling myself to just keep doing this, stick with the program, push through this and I WILL over come these silly fears b/c that's all they are, their silly.

I'm not sure the point of my post, other than to just vent my frustrations I guess. I know most of this is my negative talk going hay wire & that I'll soon learn to control it, it's just, well I guess hard when your in the middle of it lol

hope the venting helped. . . I like your signature. . .

Hi MC Grace, thanks lol I think it did ~ things are crazy right now with my husband out of town, a sick kid and an onry two year old. Sometimes the stress gets a bit heavy, so I thought I'd blow some of the steam here.

I like your quotes too, their wonderful!

What I'd like to offer you here is hope. As you work this program you will find the hills and valleys are less frequent. Your day will feel more like your ground is evening out. I would notice little things that indicated big progress. Thoughts I'd once had around a specific "whatever" didn't occur anymore. Progress wasn't like a huge event, it was gradual. You will overcome the fears, and the frustrations will be fewer and so much farther apart.

Thank you so much pecos. Reading your post made my day a bit brighter.

I have heard that medical students who are learning the symptoms of various diseases often start to notice themselves exhibiting the same symptoms they are learning about. It seems when we focus on a problem many of us identify with it to the point of experiencing it ourselves. This is empathy and it can be a great help in building interpersonal relationships but as you see it can cause havoc in a situation like this. When hearing about other's problems we can be empathetic but we cant identify to closely with them or their problems become our new fears.

There is a lot of truth in that! My cousin is in medical school right now, and he was recently talking about this!

It's something to keep in mind, when I'm dealing with this. Thank you for your post

I am feeling a lot worse today than when I started this program two days ago. I stayed in bed most of the day, I feel disconnected and nervous. When I logged in today it was to ask if anyone else had felt this. It seems to be a normal part of healing. It is so encouraging to read that other people have these feelings and have not only survived but overcome.